Promises are meant to be broken.
Yun ang sabi mo na hindi totoo.
Kasi, sabi mo, matutupad yung lahat ng promises mo.
E bat, hindi mo na fulfill ?
Iba ka talaga.
Ikaw na ang Da Best.
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It was April 2012, away much ang drama namin. Na ang ending, hiwalayan. Pero dahil nga mahal min ang isa't-isa, nagkabalikan kami.
I am March Mabelle Avila. 3rd year irregular student sa isang College dito sa Davao. I do have a boyfriend. He is my one and only love, Alexander Balot. Xander is my second boyfriend. Three years na kaming mag.on. Ngayon, 4th year na siya. BSA ang course niya.
But, it was not the end of the misery.
One night, nang nasa tapat na kami ng bahay, he asked me the question na hndi ko inakalang super sakit pala.
"Is it okay na magfocus na muna tayo sa studies natin?" yes. Im shocked.
"W-What?"
"I mean, March, malapit na ang Mock Board. I need to concentrate. I'm afraid that I wont be around with you everyday-everytime you need me. I'll be concentrating. I need to pass this. I'm also afraid that you will get used to the situation. You need also to concentrate on your own studies."
"But, we can do it together!" Yes, I wont let him go. Not now. Not after all of the challenges na nalampasan na namin. "I can also help you!"
"PLEASE..."
I surrrender. "Okay. You win. But, I doesn't mean that we will really go on our own ways right?-I mean we will still be friends, Special one? Right?"
"Yes"
Nakahinga ako ng maluwag. Yes, alam ko, sa akin parin siya. And that made me happy.
The next day, ok pa rin kami, kasi nga diba, ang wala lang sa amin ngayon ang Title na In A Relationship. We went out for lunch, like the old days. But may napansin ako kay Xander, parang there is something in him. A secret maybe. And I need to know what is it.
And the confrontation happened.
"Who is she?"
"Who?"
"Your textmate! The one that you are always texting with! The one that you are chatting with! The one that you are calling with everynight! Who is she?"
"Ohh! You know it already?" that made me cry
"W-What? So lahat ng hinala ko totoo? Xander?"
"March, look. The break-up. I was planning it before I met Jan. Please, listen to me. I-it.. it really wasnt intentional but, March-" I cut his words
"Nahulog ka na sa kanya."
"Y-Yes" and that broke me
"How could you? Is my love isn't enough Xan? Hindi pa ba sapat yung yung para na akong tanga sa kamamahl sayo? Hindi pa ba sapat yun?"
"Mar-"
"I don't want to hear those sentences Xander. It will hurt. Really. So, Shut up. Lets forget each other." then I ran away. Away from the person who it thought will be with me through ups and down. Through Thick and Thin. Till Death do we part.
We separated ways. It was every hard for me. So hard that I wanted to die. Sa lahat ng klase ko, lutang ang isip ko. Hindi ako masyadong kumakain. Kase, iyak lang ng iyak ang gusto kong gawin.
Now I know, promises are meant to be broken. Broken into pieces na parang abo nalang at matatangay ng hangin.
I dont know kung mapapatawad ko pa siya. Hindi ko alam. Mahal na mahal ko siya. Sobra. And with this, I promise myself, I will be better na pagnakita mo ako, malalaglag ang panaga mo.
Moving on will be painful but I will become better. Trials lang ito. Aja March Mabelle Avila! You can do it! Next time na magkita kayo, Patay kang bata ka.
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Author's Note:
Sorry :)) Beginner pa po kase ee. Thank you for reading.. Baka po may sequel pa po. Ktnx. Love Lots.
----JayLopez
