Lost Without A Map

Chapter 5

June 21, 2003

It is the first day of summer! The sun is shining and a light breeze is blowing. I have to admit that I am actually in a great mood today. My cuts are starting to heal but they still hurt. I was so excited to get my new identity today. I love the name Nysa and I think it suits me well. The girl from the library took complete advantage of my money. She showed up with her tough boyfriend and demanded $200. She told me that since I had already made the deal with her, there was no backing down. I gave her the money and left.

         I realized this morning why I'm glad that I don't wear make up often. I didn't have any make up remover or anything so when I woke up this morning, I looked like a raccoon. I can't say I look much better since I only had water to wash my face with, but I don't look like the walking dead anymore.

I have been thinking about the letter that I sent to William. I can't help but wonder if he received it. What did he think of it? I wish he would come and look for me. I can't tell him where I am because he might tell my parents. He doesn't understand what the consequences of that would be. I wish I could hear back from him but I know that would be impossible. I just need to find a way to call him. 

June 22, 2003

I'm close to the town that I have been looking for! I finally figured out the map and realized I only have about a day of walking left if I don't stop to sleep. I think that is what I'll do. I decided not to call William because I am to close to my destination. I need to talk to him, but I don't know how yet. I'll send him a letter.

June 23, 2003

The letter is sent! I wish I could hear back from him but I know there is no chance of that. I am not in the greatest of moods today. I haven't eaten, I haven't slept, and I've been walking constantly. I didn't realize the town was this far. I thought I would be there by now.

June 24, 2003

I MADE IT!  Im in the town of Fiskar and I love it. It is small and separated from the rest of the world. Tiny cottages are dotted through the trees and gardens swim around me. I think I want to stay here.

June 25, 2003

Yesterday, after arriving, I talked to some people who live here and they told me that some houses were for sale. They said I had to have a steady income though. I'm just staying in an apartment/bed and breakfast sort of place until I can get a job.

It's late, but I just have to tell you. It's very easy to find a job in this town. They may seem small but the town is actually a fair size. The population of the town is just hidden from the world. I love it. I got a job at the local grocery store. I start on Monday. People here give me weird looks. I think it's because of my new style. There are some people here who have the darker look, like I do, so I don't stand out like a sore thumb. I will write more tomorrow