I never thought that my life would be this challenging.
I feel like im in a bad drama.
One that seems like it follows the same storyline as every other one.
Parents having nothing to do with you, being beaten by the person who you thought loved you, never knowing when your going to be taken away from the people who actually do love you. It all follows the same storyline. But one day the plot will change.
I’m not going to seek revenge.
I’m not going to throw my life away because of these events.
Because everyone of them has made me stronger and made me want to do something with my life.
Being abandoned by the people who brought me into this world, would hurt everyone. No matter how bad your parents are.
Growing up without the love of a parent, is dreadful.
Living completely different than other people, is more challenging than people think.
And the hardest time is when they finally want to be in my life.
I never know when they are going to leave me again, or if they are there to hurt me even more than they already have.
Even giving my heart away to someone to get those people off of my mind doesn’t help.
Because I never know what will happen in my life even if that person promises to protect me. Because when that time comes he will just leave me.
And tell me to have a good life.
While I’m confused and don’t know what to do.
Don’t worry I won’t get revenge on anyone. I’ll just do something you never expected me of all people to be able to do. I will become someone.
Someone that people look up to. Someone who inspires people. Someone that the people who pushed me away will regret losing. So just sit back and watch as i become someone you never expected me to be.
