The Sloan Family (the remake)

Chapter 6

oh crap!

After her brief fight/kiss with Mark, Lexie got paged to the pit for a consult. The patient had jumped from a 3-floor building after a fight with his children and hit his head first. The patient had some important damage to his skull. They did CT right before the patient had a stroke. She had to rush him into surgery but the patient's brain had too much swelling and she had to declare him brain dead after 3 hours of surgery.

She was tired and felt sick. She couldn't wait till her shift was over so she could head home and sleep. Even though it was a promising reward, she had to wait and it made it even more unpleasant. Why did she chose to move back where he lived, why? Now, she had to face him for the rest of the day.

Her pager went off and interrupted her thoughts.

She went down to the nurse station to pick up her file and see the results of her test. Everything was clear on the first page so she didn't bother to read the second. And she went and put it in her things in the attending lounge. And forgot about it afterward.

The rest of the day was calm, she wasn't page again to the E.R. and had time to clip the aneurysm she had planned in her schedule.

~<later that evening>~

Lexie knocked on Meredith's as she always did when her kids were asleep. She took off her coat and lay it on the couch next to Meredith. Two glasses of wine were sitting on the coffee table.

"Mer?" She asked since the room was empty. "Where are you?"

"Kitchen" her older sister responded.

She joined her sister in the room and helped her finish washing the dishes. When they were done they headed to the living room.

"So... did you take a look at your results?" Meredith asked her sibling.

"Yes, I did and everything was normal so you don't have to worry about me."

"I know and I trust you but..." Meredith knew her sister too well to let it go like that, she had to look for herself.

"But you went to see them anyway." She interrupted her sister. She turned around and took the papers from her pocket and handed them to the other Grey in the room. "I knew you would say that."

As she observed her oldest, she took a sip of her wine. When she came across the second page, Meredith's look changed. It went from happiness to see that her sister was healthy to pure shock.

"What?" Lexie asked before taking another sip of her drink.

"Lex, I don't think you should be drinking wine."

"Mer, I'm alright. I looked at the results myself, I'm not sick so yes I can drink."

"Did you look at your HCG levels? Because they're high."

"Yeah right. Stop joking, there's no chance in hell I could be pregnant."

Meredith handed back two results to her sister and pointed the information.

"Lexie, you had drunk sex with Mark three weeks ago. Can you remember anything about that night? Like him having a condom on his penis, by example?"

Lexie looks like she and seen a gosht, but the truth was that she was now confronted at the situation she had refused to face for years. This time she had no choice but to tell Mark, and it couldn't have happened at a worst time.

"It can't be right, it just can't," Lexie said. "It's impossible..."

"Look, if you want to we'll just test again, okay?"

"Mer," she said as calm as she could given the situation. "I'm a doctor. I know what this means, I just wasn't expecting it. But that baby is in me and I won't do anything about it. I still have time before I start to show and I don't have to tell Mark until then."

Even though she seemed to have figured it out, Meredith was still able to see that she was confused about the whole situation.

~<the next morning>~

Lexie woke up and her first thoughts went to that child inside her. He was coming into a world where nothing made sense. She owed to that child to make sense of everything. She had done the same for the twins five years prior and she was about to have to do it all over again. But this time she would have to make a place for Mark. Even though for the twins she had included Mark in a way, by telling them stories about and that even though he wasn't there he lived in them very much, now she had to let him be there for everything.

The reason she was waiting to tell him wasn't because she was trying to keep that baby from him, it was because she wanted to know if he or she and the twins would be as important to him as Sofia was. That even if he hated her, he would love them.

She went to wake her kids up, school would start in less than two hours. As she accomplished their morning routine, she realized how hard it was for her to do alone. She realized how much she needed help from someone. Maybe that after all, Mark would fit in perfectly in their little family.

She knew she had to somehow include Mark in Brandon's and Leslie's life but first, she needed to know if they wanted him there. If they still needed a father.

They got to the car and Lexie took the opportunity to ask them as they were stuck in there for a little while.

"So, I was wondering how you'd feel to have a dad since you know, we haven't talked about it in a little while? So, would you like that?" She asked the two kids sitting in the back.

Brandon was the first to respond, he always had this stubborn idealistic idea of their family.

"I don't think I would like that." He said. "I think we are perfectly fine being all three of us. I don't want that to change."

She waited for his sister to answer but she didn't so Lexie knew she had to encourage her to speak.

"Less, what do you think? Would you like to meet your father?"

"Even if I would want that, I don't think we could. He abandoned us, didn't he?" She asked.

Lexie had a pinch to the heart. She had told them that story to protect them, but know it felt more like an excuse for her so she wouldn't have to conform Mark.

"Mom?" She asked again.

As if God had ear her silent prayers, they arrived at school.

"Okay kiddos, prepare your stuff, we're there."

Now, she knew she had to tell the truth, not for herself or for Mark. Her kids deserved to know that they had a father who loved them and who didn't have a choice in the matter of not being there for them.

She reached to touch her stomach.

"I know baby, he will know. You will have a daddy."

She started the car again and this time, her distinction was the hospital. She had to tell Mark.