In Love with My Bestfriend(One-Shot Story)

In Love with My Bestfriend(Charmaine's POV)

Have you still remember the time we both fall inlove with each other? Me I certainly recall the very moment I laid my eyes on you. That moment was amazing and undeniably one of the best moment of my life. I never thought I will meet someone that will turn my world upside down.  

I meet you on times when love seems not fair. Everyone around me are like over to the top in love. But me being the not so popular in school never dated anyone. Well, to tell you honestly I dated someone before I met you. Some kind of a jerk who thought he owns the world. If you would ask me if I loved him, if I never met you, I would have said yes, maybe I would never learn the true meaning of love. Maybe I allow myself to define love in a different way. 

Maybe we were both led to the same path. I was in my third year in college and you were a freshmen. We are in the same age but you continue college late for your personal reasons. I never mind those reasons because whatever it is it led me to you.  

I was with Jenny, my bestfriend and unexpectedly your cousin. Such a small world to start with. We met because of her. And I thank her for being our unexpected bridge. We met in a casual way. Jenny told me that you are Charles and she told you I'm Charmaine. We immediately click. In a day or so we became friends. Though we are individually unique we easily understand each other. We became close, closer that I never realize I was already falling in love with you. I just woke up one day that I am excited to see you. I never intended to fall for you. It was never in my plan. It never even cross my mind. Not until I learn how gentleman and a great person you are. I am slowly starts loving you. But I thought it was a hopeless shot of love. You will never love an ugly duckling like me. You will never love a woman who has a thick eyeglasses and a big braces in her teeth. I know I am the "Ugly Betty" kind of girl. A weird and out of this world kind of girl. I didnt even know if you knew the secret feelings I had for you but all I know is I am happy everytime I am with you. The feelings unexplainable I cant even recognize it. I never felt that you love me too. Simply because I am not your type. You like women that are aggresive and wild. My total opposite.Whenever you told me about those girls you like I remained silent beside you. Willingly listening to all your sighs and sentiments. I remained the good friend. I remained the good friend who secretly fall inlove with his bestfriend. What a cliche.  

But every friendship undergo trials and ours was never an exemption. Maybe I was so tired of listening about Megan. Your beautiful girl. The meanest girl I met. I never even undestand how on earth you fall in love with her. I know she's beautiful but her attitude sucks. 

One day, we go on to lunch. We always do that before Megan came into your life remember? But things change when he's been part of your life. You taken me for granted. But this is what I want right? To be just the good friend. 

You tell me again your undying sentiments about her. That you feel that she didnt love you. How I wanted to tell you that she didnt really love you because no one can love you the way I do.  

"She's a bitch!" I rather said. I bite my lips after saying those words and watch your expression. And until now, I can even remember how you look disappointed that time. 

I still remember what you told me. Those words peirce me like a knife that it hurts a lot. You told me how untrue I am to you. You told me that I am not a real friend. That I make you believe that I love the persons you love. But tell me how can I do that? I wanted to be Megan. I wanted to be her. I wanted you to love me back. But I remained silent. I burried deep within my heart the feelings I had for you. Even if I tell you about it, nothing will change.  

After that day. I never saw you again. You never called like you always do almost everday. You never drop by our house before going to school like you always do every morning. I never recieved any text messages from you since then. The friendship ended but my love for you never ends. I pray that one day you would realize you've lost someone precious. That you have lost someone real. But i guess you never realize it. I always saw you in school with Megan. You are laughing with her as if I am just a shawdow passing by both of you. You never even look at my direction. You have easily erase me in your life. But that moment seeing you was an agony for me. How can I forget you that easy when all I think was you. How can i remove you in my life when I can even saw you around. How can I even forget someone I treasure a lot? 

Days passed and we remain in that situation until one day I saw you at the soccer field alone. As if you are waiting for Megan. I am about to go to my favorite spot there where I can quitely study my lesson. I almost drop my books when you came towards me. 

"Can we talk?" you said. You still had that husky voice I like. And damn, you still had power over me. My heart flips upon hearing your voice and God knows how much I wanted to scold it for doing so. 

I just nod and pretended that I was never affected by your voice. 

We sat on the bench near the field. I didnt know why but nervousness stikes me.  

We sits quitely for a minute or so. No one tries to intervine the silence that's between us. Until you told me the most unexpected things you would said. 

"I love you Charmaine!" 

I was shocked. I look at you and I saw the sincerity in your eyes but I didnt want to believe it. You hold my hands and grips it. 

"I love you for so long" you added. 

I was waiting for you to say "I was just joking." but it never came. I still refuse to believe it. I know you are just playing some games. Maybe you found out my feelings for you and you are taking advantage of it.  

I hastly remove your hands to mine. I adjust my eyeglass before I stand. 

"Stop this game Charles. It's not funny." I quickly flee away from you but before I was out of you sight you reach my arms. And you put me in pedestal that day. You make me realize how I greatly love my bestfriend.