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Chapter Eighteen~ Literally Sweet!

"Ryan...honey, it's me, your mom" I heard my mom's soft voice . I heard her footsteps coming slowly towards my bed. I pretended to be asleep.

"Oh Ryan...I wish..I wish you could tell me what's going on.." she caressed my hair and I moved away agressively. "Ryan, please, talk to me...tell me what's wrong..." she begged me. I was furious. Not with her, my mother had done nothing wrong, I was furious with the whole situation.And she didn't particularly helped anything. I got out of my blankets with rage.

"You wanna know what's wrong mom? Well EVERYTHING is wong, EVE-RY-THING!" I yelled; I didn't want to make her sad nor did I want to be mad at her...I immidiately regretted yelling at her, but I wasn't going to apologize. Not this time. I wanted to say everything, I was tired of lying.

"Oh Ryan, I wish I could help you"

"You CAN'T help me mom!" I felt my eyes getting wet. "It's ... it's just ... why? Why did I have to be like this? I am a disgusting faggot; Britney's right. I am a worthless piece of shit, not even a real man!" I was now feeling tears running down my cheek "Why did I have to be like this, why, why am I not normal?"

"Ryan, you are a great boy, you're not disgusting, it's n-not your fault, you are a nice kid, you don't think that way right?" she was trying to be nice, but deep inside she was hurt. She was asking me full of hope that I don't like boys.

"I-I don't know mom. But I like Adam, not even like I love him!"

"Sheesh Ryan...you're mixing friendship with love"

Her words made me really angry. I was hurt.

"You don't get a thing mom! Nothing at all! I loved Adam and he loved me. He told me he liked me more than Britney but she was pregnant and he couldn't leave her!" I confessed everything

"Ryan baby, you're so confused" my mom hugged me and I couldn't stop crying. I agreed with her. I was confused. A lot. But she still couldn't understand.

Days later, everything got pretty much back to normal. Nate and I would still hang out a lot and mom was fine. Britney had forgiven Adam, but not me. Their marriage did took place, even if I was not invited. I didn't go to college and I started a YouTube account where I would play my favorite games. It was nice that I would do something else. I was slowly getting over him. It still hurt a lot. It hurt a lot that I couldn't see him. It hurt a lot that I was crying over him and he was married with my sister and they even had a kid. How many times had I wished that I could be his husband and we could have - actually adopt a kid together. But that was stupid. It was probably illegal and I was too young. But still...

Years later, I had dated some girls on my own too. Nothing special, it had only lasted a few weeks and it was more to show that I was not a complete loser. Girls were fine, but they were not like Adam. None of them  had made me feel like he had, nobody made them want to hold their hand, hug them and kiss them. I was bisexual, I just liked guys a bit more.

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"That's the story" I finally finished. Felix was looking at me stunned.

"I..I would never imagine you like that"  he said

"Y-Yeah, I guess... you don't like me that much now that you know what terrible things I have done" I quietly said. Felix grabbed my hand.

"Don't be silly. You were just a kid. And it's not your fault that you felt this way. You don't choose who you fell in love with" Felix smiled "B-But you had told me your first love was one-sided. Now you told me that this guy loved you back"

I sighed "Y-Yes, I said that ... because I was ashamed to tell you the truth."

Felix ruffled my hair." No need for  shame Ryan. And from what you just said, I don't think you're bi."

"Huh?" I asked in confusion.

"I think that you are gay"

"B-But I dated girls!" I objected

"So what? Hanging out with girls and not even kissing them it's like hanging out with friends. You said you had imahined doing more things only with guys. "

"Well, if you put it this way... I think you may be r-right" I mumbled processing his words in my head.

WARNING: this part contains hard sex scene. It is an R rated 18+ part if you don't like it, please don't read it. You have been warned.

"So.. what about doing the other things ?" Felix smirked and moved closer to my body. His one hand has holding mine and the other trailed under my shirt.

"I..um..errr.." I mumbled with pure red cheeks. Felix chuckled and pressed his lips on mine. I greedily kissed him back, not thinking anything else but him. It was only him. He and Me. US.

He made me lay back on the couch as we were making out. His lips trailed down on my neck, leaving kisses and bites. I tightly grabbed him from the back of his shirt as I felt myself getting hard. Felix's hand moved fast under my t-shirt, caressing my torso. I moaned loudly when his hand brushed my nipple by mistake. Felix giggled and quickly took off my t-shirt. He started kissing and licking my torso each time lower, until his lips reached the buttons of my jeans. He unbuttoned them quickly, like in my dream.

"F-Felix..." I groaned when he pulled my jeans down to my ankles and then sent them on the wooden floor, along with his t-shirt.My heart beats fasten as I felt my boxers pulled down like my pants.

The next thing I remember was his mouth covering my member sucking the tip at first and then my whole member. I grabbed his head, interlacing my fingers with his hair, trying not to scream from pleasure.

"F-Felixx I-I-I uh" I moaned almost ripping his hair off his head.

"Tell me what you want me to do with you and I'll do it" Felix whispered

"J-Just don't s-stopp" I groaned loudly. He chuckled and continued sucking me greedily.

"I-I'm so c-c-closee to...fuck!" I moaned loudly as I finished inside his mouth. My hands left Felix's hair. I was panting. Felix lifted his body so he can face me. He smiled softly and leaned close to my ear.

"You're so sweet Ryan. Literally. " he whispered in a husky voice making blush like I've never blushed before. He then kissed my on my lipsand carried me to our bed where we fell asleep.

A/N Heya buddies! :P Hope you enjoyed this chapter ;) Hehehe. It's probably my last one because tomorrow I'm leaving for my holiday vacation to my grandma's and I won't be able to upload :( That makes me sad, because I love writing and I am so sorry I won't have new uploads for you :'(

Anyways, I would like to dedicate this chapter to .... PurplePewdieCry because she is one of the most AWESOME people I know on Wattpad! Thank you for being so kind and nice! I'm always looking forward to reading your comments (all of your comments my grumpy cats :P )

So, anyways, have fun whatever you do, watch Pewdiepie and  Cry all day :3 and keep loving YAOI ^_^

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