Not Good Enough (James McVey/Connor Ball - Jonnor) (1/2)

Chapter 23 - Tristan & Anastasia

Tristan's POV:

Brad half-smiles at me and I smile back. The door opens and in walks Anastasia, Lauren and Luisa. 'Hey there, why do you 2 look sad?' asks Luisa and I smile 'we've just thought of a funny joke and laughed our heads off, don't worry'. Brad looks at me and I nod towards him letting him know to just go with it. 'What's the joke?' Anastasia asks. Her angelic voice gives me goosebumps, but I force words to come out my mouth. 'How does the moon cut his hair?'. They all look confused and Luisa asks 'how?'. 'Eclipse it' I reply me and Brad both burst out into fake laughs. Lauren starts to laugh 'I'm laughing because that was a bad joke'. Luisa nods in agreement, but Anastasia looks at me confused 'I don't get it'. 'It's meant to sound like he clips it' I say and Anastasia looks more confused 'but the moon doesn't have hair'. I shake my head 'it doesn't matter'.

Anastasia then speaks up 'erm... Tristan, can I speak to you alone? If that's ok?'. I look towards Brad and he nods. I smile 'sure'. I go to stand up, but Brad stops me 'its ok, we'll move so you guys can have the kitchen'. I nod 'thanks'. Brad, Lauren and Luisa exit the kitchen and Anastasia sits across the island from me and sighs 'we need to talk' and I nod in agreement.

'First, can I just say that you and Brad are bad actors' Anastasia says and I hold back a smirk and nod. 'I know somethings up Tristan..... Is it me?' she asks worried 'please don't lie to me Tristan'. I sigh 'I can't lie to you Anastasia'. 'So it is me?' she replies with watery eyes 'Tris, I'm soo sorry'. I look into her eyes 'I don't want you to think this is your fault'. 'Tris, is it because we aren't together?' she asks curious. I nod slowly 'I love you Anastasia, I would fly to the moon and back just to have your love'. Anastasia sighs 'I love you Tris, but as a friend. I want to make you happy Tris, but I don't want to play your love and make you think that I love you back in that way'. I nod understanding 'I know'. 'I'm sorry Tris, but I think it would be best if we were distant friends'. I feel my eyes start to become watery, but I hold back the tears. 'I understand' I manage to croak out. Anastasia stands up and hugs me before saying 'I'll.... erm.... see you around'. I nod and hug her back.

Anastasia then leaves and I hear her say her goodbyes before exiting the house. Someone enters the kitchen and I look up and see Luisa 'hey'. I smile towards her and she asks 'you ok?'. I shrug and she says 'well, me and Con were meant to play video games after we broke up and it looks like you need cheering up'. I roll my eyes and chuckle 'just get to the point'. 'Wanna play video games?' Luisa asks and I nod slowly.

Connor's POV:

After James had finished wrapping up my wrist, he pulls me into a hug 'I love you Con'. I snuggle into his chest 'I love you too James'. A knock on the door makes us jump and James walks over and opens the door. I see a fluffy haired boy pop his head round the door and ask 'is everything ok?'. I smile and nod, James smiles 'everything is now'. Brad enters the room 'you don't mind me coming up do you?'. I shake my head and James copies. Its an awkward silence before Brad speaks up again 'you don't mind me knowing about erm... your wrist do you?'. I shake my head and smile 'I don't mind Brad'. James then speaks up 'does Tris know?'. I look at Brad and he awkwardly scratches his fluffy hair. 'I've just spoke to Tristan about it and no one else, I promise' Brad replies quietly and I smile and hug him 'thank you for telling him for me, I was too scared to'. Brad hugs me back.

As Brad releases me from the hug, Brad says 'Tristan is going through a hard time with Anastasia too'. 'What's happened?' James asks worried. 'Tristan loves Anastasia, but I don't think she feels the same way. They've just had a private talk and then she walked out the kitchen with teary eyes said that she'll see us all around sometime'. 'Do you know what they talked about?' I ask and Brad shakes his head.

Lauren's POV:

Luisa and Tristan enter the living room and I smile at them 'are you ok Tris?' Tristan nods and Luisa says 'are you using the TV?'. I shake my head and Luisa smiles 'is it ok if we can go on the PlayStation?'. I smile and nod 'go ahead'. As Tristan sets up the PlayStation, Luisa laughs 'you do realise your gonna win'. Tristan smiles 'I'll give you a chance'. I look towards Tristan 'do you have a third controller?'. Tristan nods and smiles. I look towards Luisa 'are there teams on this game?'. Tristan nods again. 'I bet me and Luisa can beat you Tris' I say and Tristan smiles.

Anastasia's POV:

I love Tristan, but I can't stand to see him like this. That's why I thought it would be best if me and him distance ourselves. Trust me, it hurt when I said that. But I don't want to upset him or hurt his feelings anymore. I load up my phone and debate whether I should send him a text. I sigh and load up the texts me and Tristan had sent each other. I find myself slowly scrolling through the past texts, all the ones with kisses on and a tear rolls down my face and I close my phone down. I can't decide whether I love him as a friend or more. I stop walking and turn around, should I go back?

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