You walked to my bedroom door
Slowly creaked it open
And whispered my name
I replied with "Yes daddy?"
"Daddy had a long day of work sweetie."
"Oh I'm sorry. Are you tired?"
"Yes I am sweetie, and I want to feel better."
"Okay. Do you want me to warm you up some dinner?"
"No..."
Then you closed my door quietly
I thought you didn't want to wake mommy up
And I was right
But for the wrong reason
I scooched over
Making room for you
On my twin size bed
I remember the awkwardness
You feet dangling over the edge
You turned towards me
Whispering my name
In a voice as soft and dolce as a note on a violin
"Yes daddy?"
"Make me feel better."
"How daddy?"
Your reply was to pull my nightgown off
Before you got to all the way done I stopped you
"Daddy what are you doing?" I asked a little frightened
"Shhh baby it's okay...you want to make daddy happy right?"
I nodded
"So just let it happen and don't worry about."
You touched me
In places a 7 year old shouldn't be touched
Or any kid for that matter
When you finished
You put my night gown back on
And told me not to tell anybody
And that this was our little secret
You didn't do it again
I was happy
It made me feel weird
And uncomfortable
Weeks later
You came home
Bumping into things
Mumbling gibberish
Breaking mama's favorite vase
Tripping over the rug
Stumbling everywhere
Eventually
You got to my room
Bursting through the door
As if it were an emergency
You walked into my desk
Using your hands to find your way to my bed
When you found it
You ripped my covers off
The cold air splashing my body
A round of goose bumps adorning my skin
You started ripping my clothes off
No gentleness what so ever
You weren't the same
You used to be nice
Calm
Gentle
And sweet
But all traces of the old you
Were gone
I let out a startled cry
In return I was given a slap to the face
I kicked and I screamed as you raped me
My sobs wracked my body
I let out a ear piercing scream
But no one seemed to hear
It made me feel helpless
No one could help
Or would help me
I felt numb
I thought it would never end
It did
But the pain never subsided
The pain never dulled
It stayed
I don't know if it was from you hurting me
Or the pain of my heart breaking
It was intense
After
You slipped my night gown over my head
Tucked me in
Kissed me on my forehead good night
As if nothing happened
That continued for years
No one knew
Especially not mama
We walked on
Displaying a perfect image of a family
I was afraid of you
The power you had over me
It was terrifying
But that was the past
I'm stronger now
I'm better
And I just wanna say a few words
Happy death day you sick twisted bastard
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Inspiration: Caught Like A Fly by Falling In Reverse and my mom randomly waking me up by yelling at 5 in the morning.
The cover says: it does my heart a world of good, to see you in this box of wood.
Tell me what you think whether its good, bad, terrible, decent. Don't forget, comment, vote, fan! My sister gave me an idea for a second part, so if I write it, I'll post it as it's own story. Or should I add it to here? Anyway I'll figure it out. Stay awesome!
