Cofi and fishbols

Chapter XI: Science of sleep

I snuggled to him closer.

I miss this place. This comforting consign.

His arms. His bed. His pillow. Him.

“Rey…I want you to know-“

“Shh.. don’t… I don’t want to hear it please. Nandito ka na ngayon. That’s enough for me.” He held me closer. Wrapping his body to mine.

“But…”

“No…spare me the heartache. Let’s just sleep. It’s been so long since I had a decent sleep. I love you, baby.” He buried his face in my neck. I tried to read him yet all I see was serenity as he closes his eyes to sleep. And I was just there. Wide awake.

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“So what now?” Jana asked.

“I don’t know. I’m dying of guilt you know. He’s acting as if nothing happened. He even cooked us breakfast kanina then sabay na kami umalis as he went to work.”

“Why did you let Vito again anyway?” Marla trying to control the irritation she’s feeling.

“As I’ve said earlier, I don’t know. It’s like there’s this part of me that’ll continue to love him no matter what. Of all people, I know you’ll be the ones to understand this diba? I mean you were with me even before Vito. Right?” I gave them my questioning-pleading look.

“Yeah, we know. But it’s really unfair on Rey’s part. Tapos ngayon ganyan pa sya.” Jana reassured me

“Oo nga e… heck he’s slowly killing me with this tactic.”

“Reverse psychology, that’s what it is. But do you think he knows anything? Kasi parang…he already does.” Marla giving it some thought.

She looked at me, uncertainty hung heavy in the air. Unconsciously, I curled up and sought for escape. I’m just so tired.

“Yeah, Naisip ko na din yan kagabi. Kaya nga di ako nakatulog. I really don’t know what to do anymore.”

Sleep. Welcome sleep.

“Matulog ka…you have a full week ahead. Loka ka kasi forgetting you have work to do! Full sched tayo ngayon! You better be ready.” Marla scolded but I already half heard her as dreamland finally opened its gates for me.