Once again I got lost. But as usual I refuse to ask someone for help. Yes it is a kind of paranoia, I think that if I ask the direction to someone, he will know that I am not from the area and he will give to me the wrong way for attack me in an alley. The words of my grandmother resonate all the time in my head.
- Darling, promise me to be very careful. Don’t go out alone, don’t trust anyone, if something happens to you I think I …
- Granny don’t worry please, stop to be anxious. I promise, I swear I’ll pay attention to me.
Just thinking to her, I have tears in my eyes. But this is not the time to cry. I have to call the only person I trust in this city, Jay.
- Hey doll, I just going to call you. Could you …
- Jay I’m lost again, and it’s going to rain. Come get me, please, I said hurriedly.
- Ok ok calm down, tell me where you are.
- I’m next to the White Memorial Medical Center.
- Ok wait for me in front of the hospital, I’ll be there in 20 minutes maximum.
- Okay. Hurry up please.
I sit on a bench and put my headphones. I can’t live without music, it’s also because of her that I’m lost today. But what am I saying? It’s because of her that I got lost all the other times too. But I don’t care because it calms me, comforts me. The sweet voice of Mariah Carey sings in my ears, her latest album is not bad at all. I listen while watching people go by, everyone is in a hurry, it is the end of afternoon, it’s a little chilly, the rain is coming. But despite that Los Angeles is a beautiful city, day or night, sun or rain. I fell in love with this city before coming to settle here there’s three months. And I remember the day I took this decision without thinking.
- Oh Jay you can’t imagine how I’ll miss you !
- And me so …
- Who will bear my whims ?
- Who are you going to annoy all day long ?
- Who will do my hair ? You’re the only one able to tame my rebel mane perfectly.
- LOL you’re not badly neither.
A silence suddenly invades the room. I stop folding his T-Shirts to put them in his suitcase and sit on the bed.
- And who will consol me when suddenly I would like to cry ? Who will tell me to trust in myself ? I said looking at my best friend. My eyes begin to tingle.
- Hey … stop, I thought you were excited I leave ? You said that you will be able to manage alone. He replied approaching me.
- And you took me seriously ? You really are an idiot !
- And you are worst than me. You know very well that I never take you seriously ! He replied in a mocking tone. He sits next to me, I lay my head on his shoulder and he surrounds my waist with his arms.
- Jay, will I survive without you here ?
- I have no doubt about that, you’re a strong girl Mély, resourceful, cool, lovable. Everyone loves you, you will never be alone.
- Yes, but you will not be here …
- And if you come with me ?
- Okay, I immediately put me in the suitcase. I said, trying to suppress the sadness which can be heard in my voice.
- I’m serious Melania ! Come with me to Los Angeles.
Oh yes he is serious because every time we talk seriously or if he is angry against me he calls me by my real name. I look into his eyes, trying to find an explanation of what he has just to say.
