I winced in pain as my eyes squeezed tightly shut. Tears brimming my eyes. I felt a release on my arm and looked at it, revealing a purple mark. Shawn hurt me. "Shit... Alana, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you" He whispered, his voice cracking. I pulled my arm from his grip and rubbed it lightly. I didn't say a word as a hot tear slipped down my cheek. He pulled me in his arms and I hesitated. I was kinda scared but this boy took such a toll on me. I wrapped my arm tightly around his waist and breathed in his heavenly scent. The warmth of his hug comforted me, even though he'd just hurt me, I can tell he didn't mean to. "Do you forgive me?" He whispered, leaving a soft, gentle kiss on my forehead. I hesitated briefly but lightly nodded onto his chest. That was the thing about me, I was extremely forgiving, and I really did care about Shawn and was determined to find the real him again, I'd already found something... A soft side. That just showed when he hurt me. He rubbed light circles on my back making me feel comforted and warm. "What do you say we head to the park or something?" He suggested as his face nuzzled in the top of my head. "Sure, but I'm getting coffee first" I said. "Nope, I'm getting it for you." He smiled, opening the door to starbucks. Another sign. The gentleman side to Shawn. He feels like a bit of a different person already. It's weird. I walked in and ordered an iced caramel macchiato as Shawn ordered a green tea. I was still shaking yet something was stopping me from leaving. I sat down at the oak wood table in the corner and Shawn sat opposite me. He wrapped his strong hands around his mug of green tea, not once did he look me in the eye. "Shawn, are you alright?" I asked, as he continued to stare down at his tea. Once I spoke, his head shot up. "Yeah, I'm just scared" He said, my eyes grew wide as the words slipped from his mouth. Shawn Mendes... Scared? "What're you scared of?" I asked, taking a sip of my drink, nearly choking on it with the next word to fall. "Myself" I glared it him in utter shock. What? "What do you mean you're scared of yourself?" I questioned as I looked into his gorgeous brown eyes. "Not just that, but everyone else. I come across as someone who would never be afraid. But I am, Lana! I am terrified, I push people away without meaning to and I'm scared I'm gonna do that to you if we grow close. Especially after I just hurt you." He said. Wow. I can't believe the Shawn Mendes has just admitted fear... to me. Never once has he admitted fear to anyone. "Shawn, If we grow close, which, maybe I want to. You know I would never do anything to hurt you. That's what you're afraid of, you're afraid of getting hurt because that's the way you've felt your whole life." I said. He looked up at me, stunned. What I saw happened next, completely changed the way I look at him...
AN: Hey Guys! I know its been ages! an entire month I AM SORRY!! I've been super busy and had a major writers block! I'm not in school today so i should have another chapter out today!
