It's like my whole body pulses with my heart.
Sometimes it gets harder to breathe.
My ribcage becomes threateningly constricted.
And my lungs aren't getting the oxygen they need.
And so my blood runs dark and cold in my veins.
Salty teardrops are leaving red tracks on my face.
Because no longer are you here with me.
And no longer is it natural to breathe.
We spent so long together.
Building up trust, tearing down walls.
We mended broken hearts,
And filled each other with love.
But without you here,
So close like I'm used to,
There's something missing, out of reach,
Like you took my home with you.
A feeling of home that a house cannot provide.
A feeling that is rarely even recognized.
Until it was ripped away and I can't fucking breathe.
And though I'm gasping for air, I'm not getting what I need.
I don't want your love through distance and phone screens.
I want you back.
I want you home.
I want you right here with me.
