"Please fall in line!", shouted the lady official of the ride.
You could tell I'm a bit childish, going here, and falling in line of kids to wait for their turn to ride the carousel. I'm almost 25, and yet I'm here. Well, you won't understand why I do this.
"Z! Easy, we will get there. You look like a child throwing tantrums!" he laughs at me while I'm running out of patience.
"You won't understand me H! It's been years since the last time I rode this carousel!"
"Easy there! Okay I understand. But, you look so cute and lovely at the same time right now." and he kissed me on my cheeks.
"Cut that out!" but his gesture actually melted my heart.
He's been my best friend for life, I must say, but you know anything happens suddenly so, he was my supposed to be best friend for life. We've been so touchy of each other, so other people thought that we were in a kind relationship, when actually not. He knows my secrets and I know his. Our life is an open book to each other until every thing happened. Until my heart beat for him.
People say that before you meet your 'the one', you will meet a bunch of guys who'll set your standard, so you can truly say that the love of your life came. I don't actually believe in those, but I've been in a relationship with few guys and after every break, I could say that my standards really made me realize that 'the one' will be far from me. That I must find him. And I think I already did.
"Z, I'm planning on bringing you to the ball since I don't really have a date, I don't want to bring those random girls asking me out. Really, what happened on this generation? Girls asking boys out? Well, so I don't have a choice but you."
"You mocker! You're so full of yourself!"
"But seriously, I want to bring you to the ball. We've been friends for how many years, so please, let me bring you to the ball."
"Stop being trying hard in pulling out those 'supposed to be' cute puppy eyes. I'll come with you."
"Promise?"
"Yes. I promise"
"You know that I don't want broken promises Z."
"I said yes! I'll come with you!"
"Then we're settled. You're mine for tomorrow night."
And that made my heart beat so fast, I almost couldn't breathe.
Me, being the typical girl, took it as somewhat kind of a signal. That somehow he likes me too. That maybe he's feeling the same way as I do. Maybe, he's falling for me too.
I readied myself hours before he came to my house. I felt I'm the most beautiful girl because of my red flowing gown that matches my fair complexion. And my hair was up in a formal messy bun.
Then, there he was, walking towards me in his black tuxedo and red tie with his famous eye smile. How I wish those smiles were sincerely mine.
"Seems like, you're really ready Zair." he called by my name and all I did was to stare at his brown eyes.
"Well, it's a pleasure to be your date Mr. Hace." I nervously smile, wishing he didn't notice my cheeks heating up. I'm all flushed!
"It will forever be my pleasure." And there, he look directly at me, its showing that I'm the only woman he will forever see and will forever laid his eyes on.
The garden where the event was taking place were full of lights. Hanging on the tree, posts, or fixed in the plants. Every thing seems so magical, seems romantic. It feels like the perfect place for me, for us, with Hace.
"May I have this dance?" I look at his hands and all I can utter was the word...
"Yes."
[Play song at the media section: Enchanted by Taylor Swift]
I placed my hands on his shoulders and he placed his hands on my hips. We were now slow dancing. But my heart is pounding hard inside my chest.
I am staring at those brown orbs which was staring back also at me. It feels like the world suddenly stopped and I'm being drowned by the intensity of his stares. It seems like we were the only one existing in the middle of the people. Its like we have our own world and in that world I felt the connection between us. There's a feeling inside me that was continuously building up and wanted to burst as I let myself get drowned by him.
And slowly I noticed that he's lowering down his head towards mine. And he was only staring not on my eyes but on my lips. Slowly, he ate the distance between our lips, and I watched him envelope his lips on mine. And then, the feelings inside me burst out.
And there I let the words slip out of my mouth.
"I love you Hace."
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
His smile suddenly faded. His once sweet stares suddenly became blank and empty. But before that, I noticed something passed in his eyes. Its like anger, or guilt maybe. And I know, the world and connection we created earlier was now lost.
"I'm sorry. You can't." that's what all my feelings get from being honest: apology.
"But, w-why?" I was hopeless and desperate. Tears were starting to build up in the sides of my eyes.
"It's just that--, I'm really sorry. I must have not done that."
"Tell me! Why can't I love you?" tears suddenly stream down my face. I saw horror in his eyes as he look on my tears.
"You know that I don't like breaking promises and I can't break the promise I made. I promised my heart to someone else before I even met you. And I don't want and I will never break that promise. I'm really sorry Z." all I can see now was guilt and pity. And I don't want those.
"I understand H. I do. Can you please let me go for tonight? I feel awful of myself. I'm sorry if I expected something from you. It's my fault. Don't bother at all."
"I'm really sorry Z."
I was enchanted to meet you..
And that's it.
Because of some silly promise, it broke my heart.
It was enchanting to know Hace. A man whose really serious with promises. That's the first thing I liked about him by the way. And that was also the thing that broke my heart.
I haven't talked with Hace for years after that night. But to clear myself, I'm not bitter about what happen. I just want to move on and to let go of things. And because of that, I realized that maybe Hace was badly smitten of that girl because she was very enchanting, more enchanting than I am. Hace was my enchantment, but I am not his.
I thought Hace would be 'the one', but unfortunately he's not. So, there were really a bunch of guys who will let you see the standards if 'the one' was really given to you by God. We all need to wait for the perfect timing. To wait in the right line.
"Miss, are you going to ride or not?"
"I'm sorry I spaced ou--" I looked at the guy behind me. Brown eyes and sharp collar bones beneath his gray v-neck shirt.
And there my waiting paid off. My perfect time finally came. How enchanted that moment was.
I'd spend forever wondering if you know,
I was enchanted to meet you
