Poetry

My Mother Vs. Meth

Most days I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs,

I want my mother back who is this monster you have become?

I really haven't known who you are for quite a while,

But I try to act tough so I force this fake smile.

You love someone else way more than me,

Her name is Crystal Meth and I don't think she'll ever set you free.

She's had you in her hands for about 10 years,

But all of those years are nothing compared to my fear.

Fear of you lying

Fear of you dying

Fear of having so much faith in you and just being left crying.

You wrote me letters from prison and promised the sky,

More than 3 years later and nothing but lies.

Nothing but heartache, pain, and misery...

I GET IT NOW, you choose her over me.

You've told me to my face that it was drugs over me,

Even that wasn't enough to make me see.

Today you will tell me that you are clean

You give me so much hope, then tomorrow it's the same ole' dope phen.

I'm telling you now that I am through with you

This comes from my heart and every word of it's true.

I can't promise that I will be around to see

But when you get tired of that meth you will see

All along you had something way better

And it was your family

I do thank you so much for one thing

Thank you for showing me how important a good mother should be.

And to never show my children the pain that you showed me.

So, today I officially set myself free.

Because I know there's a stronger woman in me.