Breaking Thoughts

Consuming Darkness

I was once walking a beautiful path it was filled with colors that were so bright, the kind that made you feel warm inside.
The days went on and it started to get a little gloomy, I got tired and overwhelmed but I kept walking down the path, even the path didn't feel right under my feet.
I came to a 4 way intersection and it was all emotions I have felt
tired, overwhelmed, sad, and hopeless
each sign said something different and at all of them there was one person
I started with hopeless he told me I could go down that path and find all my answers,
after him I asked overwhelmed she started to tell me that if was calming down that path, they still didn't sound like me..I went to sad she said that I could be very happy if I went down this path but I still wasn't convinced. Eventually I went to tired he told me that down that path I could sleep for as long as I wanted, and that sounded perfect.
I started walking down that path and I start to realize that maybe sleep isn't what I need but I keep walking, the further I got down the path I started to feel the tiredness sweep
over me.
finally I found the bed and I layed down, shut up eyes and soon fell asleep.
it seems like just a few minutes that I was sleeping but it was actually a couple hours, I tried to get up but I just couldn't, I tried everything from convincing my body to move, and thinking of the happy things.
but yet again nothing. I layed there and fell asleep again.
I woke up and I was able to get out of bed, my mind was wondering down the path and I felt good, the colors started to brighten again.
so I get up and on my way I was, I came to this road that was black and another road that was gray. I took the gray road, but I didn't know that there was a catch to every road I went down. I get farther down the gray road and start to run into darker colors like black and blood red. for me this was not normal I started to think to myself "should I go back?"
I was curious and wanted to see where this road lead me
I finally got all the way down the road, I then see these darker colors more than I have ever seen before.
I walk towards them because they start to look comforting and interesting
I walk into the black madness that has consumed my mind, and I run into the darkness it's so comfortable and peaceful here I tell myself. so I stay, I find a bed and I lay there, I was happy then, I see this pathway to all the bright colors I start to read for it but the more I reach the more it pulls away from me.
I get a slight grip on it and start to pull it my way, but it slips from my grip, then flies through the black hole
I start to chase it but the further it goes I become hopeless that I'll never catch it again, I stop running and turn around
it was no use anymore
I'm stuck here in this rut
I haven't ever felt what I'm feeling now
tired, sad, hopeless, nothing, worthless, and that nobody cares, that not even I care
what do I do? I can't catch those bright colors anymore, do I just sit here?
I keep thinking and thinking and I over think myself to the point where I just want to give up
all those people I ran into a the intersection are now here I see them, all together then I walk towards them, they all kinda look like me..then I realize they are me, then more "'me's" show up there's some feeling empty, lost, confused, hatred, hurt and so many more. I can't take it anymore as they all consume every inch of my being.
then before I can think twice in laying on the floor, dizzy, weak, I can't move. I see the light I missed, I was there, I was home once again
but it was too late, I was gone.