I Wonder

I always wonder.
My mind always wandering to places it shouldn't go.
Too so many places, but it always ends with one thought.
You.
A few thoughts come to mind.
Do you ever think of me?
Do you ever try to call or text me?
Do you want me?
More and more flow through my head.
Filling my mind with thoughts of you.
Do you wish you hadn't left me?
Are you afraid to talk to me?
Where you afraid to lose me?
You swear you didn't love me.
But when I looked at you I saw it.
A glimmer of something.
Love maybe?
Or was my wondering mind just fucking with me?
I don't know how you feel.
You didn't want to talk it out.
And maybe you did it because you didn't want to hurt me.
But you did in the worst way...
You left me when I finally felt like someone new again.
And now I wonder throughout my scattered mind to get away from it all. And all it does is lead me back to you.