Would He Do It?

It is not your fault.

It was still dark outside when I woke up. The cold summer breeze blew my hair in al kinds of directions. I slowly walked over to where Ryan was sleeping, but he wasn't sleeping. He was sitting on his bed with his head in his hands. Something must be wrong I thought to myself. "Ryan you okey?" I aksed softly since the others was still sleeping. I sat down next to Ryan and put my hand on his.
He slowly looked up to me and I could see he had been crying. His eyes was blood shot red and it was emty. I could see the pain in his eys.

"It was a year ago Tori." Then I realised what Ryan was talking about how could I forget! The tears start to build up in my eyes. My sight became blury. Adam's death was a year ago. "Ryan." Was I all I could say I just sat there and I couldn't stop crying.

Adam was Ryan's older brother, his only brother. They were so close, at first Ryan didn't won't me to date Adam, but I loved Adam. We dated for three years and in that third year Adam died.

That's how I met Adam being friends with Ryan. We were little when I first met Adam. I was at Ryan playing at his house for the first time and Adam was in the kitchen wearing a baseball cap and blue shorts with a red T-shirt. I don't know why, but I just went up to Adam and stared at him and I mean stare with a big smile on my face with a few teeth missing. I wasn't alone though Adam aslo had a tooth missing. I laughed and cry at the same tame thinking back to the thought.

Then Adam asked if I wanted a piece of his peanutbutter and jelly sandwich. Which I said no to, because I'm allergic to peanuts and I still stared at him. And he stared back, oh I miss Adam so much. The older we got the more time I spent with Ryan the more I got to know Adam. Then a few years later Adam asked me out. We dated for three years, he was my firts boyfriend ever and I mean ever! And then in that third year he died three months after our anniversary. That was a year ago.

"A year ago! Tori a year ago!"
"Ryan I know I just didn't realise that it was today, I'm sorry"
"Sorry Tori I didn't mean too." Ryan looked at me with tears in his eyes. I hugged him and couldn't stop crying either. "It's okey Ryan." I softly rubbed the back of his head.
"Tori I know you miss him too and I know you loved him." The tears streamed down my face at what Ryan had said and I quickly wipped them away.

Ryan looked at me and I saw the anger, the hurt in his eyes. "If only that stupid drunk driver wasn't on the road, if only my brother didn't go out to pick me up at 1pm. in the morning!"
"Ryan it's not your fault stop telling yourself that it's your fault it isn't!
"Yes Tori it is!" Ryan almost shouted and I saw Kyle move in his bed.

I threw my finger on my mouth to show Ryan he was talking to loud and needed to tone it down. "Tori then why do I feel like it's my fault, my fault that my brotber died a year ago my fault that, that drunk driver crashed into Adam full speed!?" I looked at Ryan tears filling up my eyes. "I don't know Ryan I just don't!" I took a deep breath.
"But all I know is that is wasn't, it
isn't your fault it was that drunk drivers fault!"

Ryan took me into a hug seeing that it was hard on me thinking back to that day . We sat on the bed and Ryan snuggeld me safely in his arms slowly my eyes was closing and I fell asleep.