FIND ME I'M YOUR SOULMATE

FIND ME, I'M YOUR SOULMATE
A Short Story
Written by Denver Fadriquela

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When you found yourself alone in a crowd and when you felt that being lonely is a routine, then you have to ponder things before your mind droop in to a deepest hole of broken hearted soul. I was there when all of the people surround me are happy with their love life. I don't say that my life is in despair. I just learned how and when to be happy with someone.

I had a past few relationships since when I was 18. All of them turned in to a tragic ending love story. Its not just like how Romeo and Juliet fight for their love. Its not just like Cinderella who found his Prince straightaway. I did not find them but they came and go. That is how love dissipated me from who really I am.

Yes, I chose to isolate myself from the reality of being broken. I forgot to make myself happy. I let someone came in to my life uninvited. I was wrong when I trust people. I am totally injured by being inclined with those men who ruined my heart. I stopped for a while. I'm rested.

I met a guy from the other building. His unit is in front of my windows. I always see him busy doing some stuff. I never had a chance to talk to him but he makes me happy with his smile. He has a quaint personality. I always stare at him sneaky. Well, that's the worst manner I have. Maybe I'm just anxious about what I feel for him. He is a lovable man, perhaps.

One day, I saw him while talking with someone over his phone. I heard his voice sounded as if he begged for something. He was crying and I felt his burden with his tears. I thought of something, a peculiar character of a man. I stared at him while hiding myself in a guilt by not doing something to make him feel well.

Yes, I was in a scenario of healing myself from my past. Its been a long time since I chose to stay longer inside my derelict room than being with people who gave me so much distress. I was turned myself as a shrinking violet. Full of bashfullnes. I was drowned.

I always wait for him to come out of his room and stay on his balcony. Then one day, I got a chance to send my hello and I got his response. Well, just a nod and smile.

"Hey! What's your name?"

"I'm Martin!"

Oh gee! My favorite name of a man! I don't know where I got my courage to talk to him. Its just that, I wanted. Then, he smiled at me while holding a cup of tea, perhaps. I felt so strange having that kind of conversation. He asked my name and I responded promptly...

"Corrine! I'm Corrine!"

"Oh hello then, Corrine!"

After that day, time passes by, months counted down, I fell in love with Martin. I've waited for him to say anything about what he feels for me. I've waited for him to feel the same way and I was so stupid thinking that somehow he has something special for me. Its all my fault to take myself for granted.

Then one night, we had a first dinner together. I never expected him to be so humorless. He was so serious and everything was turned to a confession. I found out that we have a same story. He was abandoned by his soon to-be wife three days before their wedding. He had a suicidal story of love and until now, moving from this is stagnant. Just like me. Just like how love left me.

I thought I was the only one who suffered from this kind of pain. His tears was a hint but not a conclusion of his whole story. I was sadenned hearing those words coming from a broken hearted man. We meet people with same stories as we are and we lost them uncontrolled. Really. Uncontrolled.

I've waited for so many times believing that the best person will come to give an unconditional love. But I am not a Princess in a Fairy Tale. I am just a lover who are lost by love. Yes, I lost myself thinking that destiny exists. That true love waits. But its not served them alone. Coz when waiting is worthless, destiny and true love will find our own soulmate that will make us a whole.

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01/06/2016
11:38 PM