In the North West of England,at around 1 am a 13 year old girl, named Jessica Louise,was sat at her desk in her bedroom reading a fan fiction about Dan Howell (danisnotonfire) and Phil Lester (AmazingPhil) and how Dan was transsexual and was born a girl which made this girl think about herself and she started to question if she was aswell.
Earlier in her life she had questioned if she was but she never thought too deeply into it. But this got her really thinking. She related to Lily(Dan) soo much in this fan fiction. She hated having to wear makeup which was forced upon her face everyday of the year since she turned 12. She only didnt fight it off so she could hide the true person behind. She hated her girly clothes her family had bought her but it would be rude not to wear them once in a while. She even took her sisters perfume to try and throw her off her case because Jessica Louise's sister was very good at findjng things out as she had learnt in the past. She started to think that, that day would be the day when her sister Laura Jane, who had just turned 16, would finally know the truth about her younger sibling. She knew that later that day she, her sister and their mother would be going to town and Jessica Louise knew that she could get her sister alone to tell her about her sexuality. This would be the day when she would actually TELL someone the true person she has been hiding all thess years.
Later that day..
"Laura Jane," Jessica Louise said, "I need to tell you something." She started doubting if this was the best time to come out. They were standing smack in the middle of the shopping center with hundreds of people walking by but was put off this thought when her older sister spoke back and asked what was up. All the 13 year old could do was reply to her sister. "Ok, I'll say it fast," Jessica Louise mumbled, "I'm transsexual, please dont hate me." Laura Jane just looked deep into her little sisters eyes and went over the situation a million times in her head. "Why would I hate you? You're my sister, I could never hate you. But are you sure? I will fully support you if you are but I just want you to be certain and happy with your life. I dont think you are 100%. You might think you are but you're probably not. You have phases. I'm just trying to make sure this isn't one of your phases." "IT'S NOT. I AM!" Jessica Louise snapped. "I have been thinking about it for a long time now and its the right choice for me." Jessica Louise said, more calmly this time. "Ok then." Her sister replied quite taken a back from her sisters sudden change in moods. "You have to tell mum sometime soon though." Laura Jane added. "I know," Jessica Louise replied, "but I'm scared, will you be with me?" Jessica Louise asked. "Every step of the way, as long as your happy. I only want your happiness. Does anybody else know about this?" "Only Caitlin, she was easiest as 1) I told her over text so it would be less awkward and 2) she supported me from the start." Caitlin was Jessica Louise's best friend. "I will support you all the way, midget, I just want you to be 100% sure with your life decisions." Slightly angered by that remark her sister had made about her not being supportive. She had said to Jessica Louise on numerous occasions that she would support her little sister with anything as long as she was happy with the outcome. Laura Jane started to question in her mind if that was the right term to use. All this transsexual business was already confusing her after just 5 minutes of knowing the truth.
Still in the shopping center, Laura Jane had met up with her boyfriend and their mate and had left the poor Jessica Louise to aimlessly wander about the shops that surrounded her. Except this was a good thing for her as she could walk into the male sections of shops and see if it was the right choice for someone soo young to be thinking about something soo massive it was unreal. This was even more important than choosing options during year nine, which Jessica Louise was rapidly approching. Bored and alone Jessica Louise was wandering about the shops thinking about how being a boy would completely change her life. She found contetment in this thought. She was happy. She was actually happy for the first time in a very long time. I'll call myself Nicholas Philip she thought. It's double barrel like my name anyway and it could be shortened to Nick Phil or just Nick. She text Caitlin saying.
Message to Caitlin:Hey Caitlin, because I'm transsexual, I have changed my name to Nicholas Philip or Nick Phil or just Nick for short. I am a boy. I am happy being a boy. I hope you appreciate my life choices.
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Be Who You Are, Say What Feel,Live How You Want.
Non-FictionThis is basically my coming out story. If you are a homophobic person then keep your opinion to yourself. I know everyone is entitled to their own opinion but please dont spread hate to anyone. Its not nice and you'll just end up being the bad guy...