Bad Past, Good Girl.

how we met

Leaving home in a rush not wanting to look at him anymore he basically just ruined my life. Hurt me in so many ways, took things that can never be given back to me. Tears streaming down my face, still sore from this morning and trying to make it to school before I'm too late. I need Jenesa. i need my bae. i can't do anything without her I need her now. Shit I can't stay here for to long without really crying. I can't do this anymore I need to tell someone else, someone who I can also trust."hey Salina,what you doing you should be in class" my teacher Ms Dillon said. "Fuck" I whispered under my breath, I couldn't go to class now you know what fuck it I'm going to the park I need to cool down. I left ms Dillon and headed for the front of the school.
The second bell rang signalling the end of first period. My perfect opportunity so no one can see me leave but being the clumsy me I bumped into someone. No it didn't go like the cliche books no I bumped into the school's bitch "ugggh" why did it have to be her " bitch watch where your going" she says watching me. My response" I'm not in the mood for any if your shit alright if you don't want your cake face to be messed up I suggest you leave me in peace"," now why would I do that to look like a punk in front the schools nerd please" ask I decided to do the most stupidest thing.....I punched her straight in get nose and I ran straight out the school and straight to the park. Where I just broke down.

Flashback
I was only nine. My dad came into my room and I was sound asleep. He turned on the light and I stirred in my sleep a little he picked me up and carried me into his room"get undressed" he ordered and left the room so I did and I got under the covers because I was cold .He came into the room took off the light and told me" I an going to have sex with you" I laughed ( I know stupid but I didn't believe him) stop joking. I snuggled into the covers more and he pulled the covers off and looked at my body he came close enough for me to smell the alcohol on him" open your legs, wide" I hesitantly opened them and then he sticks his finger in me it hurt so much. And that was only the first time.

End of flashback
Right now I'm crying under a tree waiting for Esther, Jenesa, Jessica, and Bhawna so we can go to the mall and chill but they don't show up. Nope my dad shows up. He watched me and he apologized like he does every time all I say is it's OK.  Then I walk away knowing very well that tonight when he goes out and come back home it will be the same thing. Oh well what can I do?
I went back to school to see Jenesa watching me. I say nothing and walk off, she follows me to the future change room where I explain every thing. " last night he was drunk again and last night he choked me till I passed out cause I started crying after I thought he was finish but I guess not. I can't do this anymore I'm losing my self nesa". That day I went home and decided to check if i had any messages on kik, I had one by the name of John Mohammed we started talking and well I believe we kinda hit it off. He lived all the way in Algeria thou. I was kinda happy cuz he couldn't hurt me cause he was to far.

After about a month we started dating he was do sweet every morning leaving message for me to read. I told nesa and she was happy for me. My dad didn't stop his shit but I couldn't let him bother me I had a life to live and he wasn't going to stop me.
We dated for 8 months straight, yep 8 months.  I was so happy. It was to good to be true, he was 22 years old and I was only 13 big difference. I had to stop dating him cuz at the time I believed I was in love with him and I didn't want him to get in trouble.