Hey kittens, I know it's been awhile and I'm really sorry about that! It's summer and I've been slacking, I was supposed to update on Sunday, but on Saturday I went to Vans Warped tour. I got to work it, I got to cater the bands and I fed all the bands dinner and got to meet Sleeping with Sirens, Crown the empire and alot of amazing bands. Kellin Quinn is so sweet and he's really chill! Anyway, I got sun poisoning from that and it's awful! But I am really going to try and update ATLEAST twice a week. I promise I will try, and if I don't just tweet me and be like "hey bitch where's my update!" Ok haha hope you guys enjoy this chapter love you all!<3 -Maddie<3:) xoxo
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*MADDIES POV*
Nothing could make the pain stop. Nobody could say or do anything that would bring out baby back. I was completely numb. Danny didn't know how to handle it. So he just left me alone for a few days. They all did. Other then the failed attempts to try and make me eat or drink something. I didn't see the point in being healthy now. I didn't have the baby in my stomach so I didn't need to feed it. I didn't care if I died. Honestly dying would be better than this pain. I didn't want this. I never wanted this.
The door opens and Paul comes in with a fake smile. I don't say anything. I hadn't spoken a word to any of them. "Hey." Paul says sitting down next to me. I look at him and then lay back. "You wanna come to the concert?" He says a little upset. I don't say anything. I didn't see how Danny could go to a Selena Gomez concert when his child had been taken from us. "Guess not." He says with a sigh. "Liam's going to stay here with you. So if you need anything he will be downstairs ok." I say nothing. He leaves and I sit up taking out my phone.
I open up my twitter to more apology tweets from pointers. I reply to a few of them then decide I want to leave. I haven't left the house in days. It was dark out. Nobody would see me. I slide on a pair of black skinny jeans and one of Danny's hoodies. I throw my hair in a bun and grab my phone. I walk downstairs and Liam looks surprised. "Going out?" He asks. I nod. "Well I'm not supposed to let you out alone, where are we going?" He asks standing up. "I'm a big girl. I'm going alone" I say to him. "No Maddie Danny and Paul said-" "I don't CARE what danny and Paul said I want to be alone!" I shout. Liam looks hurt. I slide on some toms and walk out. Why can't everyone just leave me alone?
I don't make it far before I'm getting calls and texts from people. I answer "what?!" I ask pissed off "Maddie you aren't supposed to be out alone" I hear Danny's concerned voice say. "I can do what I want." I say sitting down on a bench. "Maddie go home" Danny scolds. "No." I say. "Damnit Maddie! Your not the only one who lost the baby! Do you understand how fucking bad this hurt me to?! I was the father! So stop acting like your the only one whoa affected! Grow up and stop being a fucking bitch!" Then the line went dead. Tears sting my eyes as I begin to sob uncontrollably. Danny was right. I was a bitch. And I didn't deserve him. I pick my phone up and dial a number. It rings a few times before I get an answer "hello?" "Mom?"
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Sorry for it being short. I'll update tonight:*
