Finding Emmalyn

The beginning

So this is how it all started....... I Emmalyn Elisabeth Johnson was born into this world May 4th by two teenagers who quite frankly weren't ready to be parents. Both mother and father had a drug problem and I was just a mistake to my dad and payback for my mom. My mom tricked my dad into getting her pregnant just because her mom told her she couldn't. Isn't that lovely? You know just get knocked up to piss your mom off and not even worry about how hard it will actually be? Well long story short few years after I was born my mom cheated on my father causing them to split up, at the time I was around two. My dad sobered up a little bit but still had his flaws, while my mom just got worse. She barely took care of me and started selling her body for drugs. Leaving poor little innocent me at home with my step father who turns abusive in a few years, don't worry we will get to that part. My mom got to point where she would snort cocaine in my room whiled I played with my toys, wow can you say mother of the year? Anyways, times goes by and my mom stays the same but get this, my dads in prison and my step dad takes out his anger on my mom on me. I still remember the harsh slap sliding against my back, legs, and even my face. I still feel a tingle where pain use to shoot up my spine. I was around 6 when this began and he would always threaten me, you cry I will break that jaw of yours. There were days where my mom would get upset due to not taking her bipolar medication and she would try to kill herself or stab me, man those days were brutal. I learned at a young age that the world is a dark and scary place maybe that's why I haven't been happy, I choose to not believe in the mere thought of a world with peace and utter goodness. After many years of being abused physically and mentally, my mom gets caught and results in my grandmother getting custody of me. This is where life got slightly better but not for long.