A Bleak Kind Of Happy.

Intro: Hope.

I'm Maya Hart. Girl. 16. My life is pretty much boring. I haven't seen my dad since I was three. My mom's a waitress, she wants to be an actress.

She has hope. I wish I could say the same myself. I used to hope for love. For happiness. If I had those two things I would be complete.

I used to have a thing for Lucas Friar. Cowboy from Texas who moved to New York for some reason I can't qualify. I remember when Riley(my best friend who cherish deeply) and I first took the subway. We were twelve then. There he was all cow boyish and handsome. But he has eyes for someone else.

Riley Matthews. Beautiful girl. Happy and ever so hopeful. My best friend . Girlfriend of Lucas Friar.
To be honest, they are a wonderful pair. Lucas is the prince in Riley's fairy tales and Riley is Lucas' princess whom he will follow to the end of the earth. That's what they said to each other some time ago.

Lucas, Riley and I were really good friends.
Mind you, I said were. That's the problem. The past. Lucas started dating Riley about three years after we'd met.
Before that we were all kind of had this weird relationship apart from being friends.
Riley and Lucas had this flirty thing going and he and I had a- well I guess you could call it a love-hate relationship.

But three years later, it all kinda changed. I'm still really tight with Riley. But Lucas... He started acting really weird like he hates me but pretends for Riley's sake.

So from this we can learn that my dreams were crushed from the very first time I saw Lucas. Cause he was all over someone else. My best friend. And later when I accept that we're just going to be friends, he starts to kinda hate me.

Now I never ever even try to hope. I've hoped my father comes back-but he didn't. I've hoped my mother's craziest dreams of becoming famous happens-but it didn't. I've hoped that Lucas could be the one- but he wasn't. I've hoped to be happy but I'm not.

If you're not happy. Then you're sad.
That's me.