Thoughts

I'm okay (not)

"I'm okay" that is all I hear.
Lie after lie, it's a bundle of tears.
I promised you that I'm okay.
That no matter what this feeling won't go away.
It hurts as I cry.
It hurts I don't know why.
Mommy never loved me and daddy was always there for me.
My arms are scarred and my arms are wasted.
Baby I know it's an excuse but I can't shake it.
This feeling I fucking hate it.
This feeling inside of me it feels empty and I feel fucked.
Mommy come back and listen to me.
Listen to the hurt and listen to the pain.
Listen to the stories that I have as you went away.
Can't you see that I don't care because I know you won't leave me in spair.

Because mommy I know this is not okay no matter the feeling it won't go away I know it's hard for you to admit. That no matter what we're both in the pit, mommy please won't you come back I wanna hear the lies you said way back. Tell me again and see if I believe how much bullshit I know I wont see.