Look Past Me.

Season 3 Ep. 5- He felt whole

Patrick opened the door and paid the cab driver. He's home but he feels as if he's lost.

After a few hours in the house where he grew up he finally decided to go home and be alone. His mom and sister didn't protest either as they felt the same.

Patrick walked up heads down towards the metal gate and felt the cold rusty surface.

"Where have you been?" Patrick quickly pulled his head up upon hearing that familiar voice.

The only voice he, somehow, wanted to hear right now.

Kevin. By the looks of it he has been sitting in the stair for quite a while and he looks annoyed.

"Patrick where were you today? This can't keep happening! You have a job to do! Under MY authority I might add." Kevin says trying to act casual with his hands on his waist.

"Sorry" was all Patrick could say knowing that hugging him is not an option.

"No. You know what Patrick if you can't do your job properly i might have to let you off? It's not fair for other peo---"

"My dad just died." Patrick cut him off followed by his tears, it surprises him how he can still make some.

He wiped the tears off.

Kevin was about to say something but he couldn't find words to say instead he was left there dumbfounded.

"If you still don't believe me you can come tomorrow, we're spreading his ashes in a cliff side." Patrick was cold, physically and emotionally.

"Patrick I'm... Im sorry." Kevin said sincerely coming closer to touch Patrick but he held his hand up as if to say he can't get any closer.

"Just, leave me. Please." Now all the longing he felt for a couple of seconds has gone and faded, replaced by emptiness and the constant bombardment of sadness.

"I'm not..." Kevin started and took a deep breath, "I'm not going anywhere." He says staring into Patrick's hallowed red eyes.

"Tough shit." Patrick says trying to laugh and act tough, shoved Kevin out of the way and opened the door leaving him just standing outside, with a worried expression written all over his face.

After changing Patrick went to the Windows overseeing the gate and saw no sign of Kevin anymore.

He must've gone home. He thought.

***

Patrick opened his eyes upon hearing Kevin's gasp.

"I think we've done it." He can see the devilish smile across Kevin's face that he always found really attractive.

"I know" he answers without knowing what he's agreeing to.

"I think we deserve to celebrate. A new game." Suddenly there was a bottle of wine and wineglasses on the table.

"To us!" Patrick says. Again, he felt as if he's just saying things involuntarily.

"You wanna see it?" Kevin said upon turning the computer screen towards him and was shocked by what he saw.

The title of the game on the screen was "I cheated" and it was Kevin naked touching another man but they're pixelated.

It was weird.

"What?" Patrick finally has gained control over his own mouth and found himself sitting on a sofa.

He looked down and saw himself on his knees giving pleasure to what looks like Kevin's shaft.