fall out boy imagines.

car crash hearts

For ActualTraash have fun bro

You heard the beeping before your eyes opened. Felt the soft pillows underneath you, then the aching and pain began. Starting in your head, the pressure almost unbearable, the pounding in your skull that vibrated throughout your whole body making your eyelids snap open. Scanning the white room you should have known you were in a hospital based on the smell of latex. You just don't remember how you got here. The curtains were open revealing a foggy night sky, almost the same color as the purple and blue bruises scattered across your arms and legs. Stitches here, bandages there, everything hurt and the smallest movement to look up made you wince.

"Oh good you're awake. We were afraid you would be out another hour." Looking to your left you saw a short nurse in purple scrubs walking toward you. She was smiling but you could since the caution in her voice and concern in her eyes.

"Ho-how did-" you tried to speak but your throat felt like talons were scratching up and down your vocal cords. "Be careful there, your neck got pretty banged up so we had to bandage it, speaking might be hard for a while until your muscles relax. I have someone here to see you but if it's too much they understand. We don't want you getting to overwhelmed." She said softly. You realized now she was trying to keep you calm, after something like this it must be common for people to freak out and panic. You took a deep breath, digging your nails into your palm to suppress the pain and nodded at her. The only thing on your mind was Patrick, you thought for sure he was the one asking to see you and you wanted to know he was okay. The memories of the events beforehand were coming back in waves, and all you knew at the moment was that you were not alone in this accident.

"Yes to the visitor?" She asked and you nodded again. She waved her arm over and moments later Pete appeared in the doorway. Seeing him made your heart swell with pain and joy, he was walking with crutches and a small cuts around his face but he half smiled at you and hobbled over. At least he was alright.

"Hey Y/N, you look great." He said trying to make light of the situation. You could see the tears through the corner of his eyes but decided not to question it. "I'm so sorry.... This is all my fault." He looked away as he spoke, setting a chair next to your bed and slumping into the seat. He patted your arm and you smiled weakly at him. Even though your throat felt like it was burning from the inside out you tried to speak, only for him to cut you off.

"I don't know what I was thinking.. I wasn't thinking that's the problem, this is all my fault. What happened t- to you and... It's all my fault." His words were starting to scare you, you remember the car ride, the icicle filled trees and the loud yelling. The fight. You and Patrick had been fighting over something stupid probably. You and him and Pete, Pete was driving and trying to make you both calm down when... It all happened so fast. Your high pitched scream mixed with Petes. Patrick throwing his arm in front of you. Then nothing.

"Wher- where is he." You forced the words out in little speaks and coughs. Pete grew very paler, more than he already was, and stood quickly. "I'm not supposed... The doctor said I shouldn't say anything to make you panic..."

"Too late." You said hearing the sound of the heart monitor speed up. "Tell me." You demanded and Pete only covered his face in his hands, shaking his head over and over. When he finally looked at you tears stained his cheeks, you were confused as to why the beeping was still audible because you could have sworn your heart stopped. Your neck burned but you couldn't help but shake your head violently, vision going blurry from tears and the lump in your throat making it hard to breath.

"No... No." You mumbled barley paying attention to anything anymore. "I'm so sorry." Pete choked, he pulled at his short hair and let himself cry silently, he grabbed your hand but you barley felt it. You barley felt anything. Your body went completely numb, a rock solid kind of numb, that felt everything and nothing all at the same time. You didn't even realize you were repeating the word no over and over.

"He loved you Y/N, he loved you more than anything. I am so sorry..." Pete's voice sounded far away, like you were under water listening through a glass window. You no longer cared about anything, your brain refused to fully process what was happening around you. You felt every inch of your heart break off, every vain and string snap. Each break hurting worse than any bruise you could ever get.

"Why do you always have to be so difficult!" You shouted at Patrick as he sat facing the window, arms crossed. "I don't want to talk right now Y/N, God can you just leave me alone." He snapped back and you huffed and turned away from him. You both sat like this, in angry silence. Patrick glancing at you every so often to see if you were still mad, he hated fighting but sometimes his pride wouldn't let him apologize. Sitting in the tension for a while until you heard Pete yell, it was fast and sharp and suddenly the car was spinning. You heard Patrick shout your name as you screamed, being thrown around the car, you felt arms wrap around you, pulling you close. Patrick held on to you and the car flipped again and again... You clutching to his jacket as he protected you from shattering glass. You saw flashes of color and snow, before hearing a loud crack and blacking out.

You don't remember when you started yelling, sobs mixed with raspy calls of Patrick's name as you flailed in the hospital bed. You don't recall Pete shouting for the nurse or when she and two others rushed in to try and calm you down. All you heard was the faint beeping of the monitor, speeding up so fast it sound more like a hum, then a sharp pain in your arm. The numbness traveling through you, making you very tired and heavy. Your eyes adjusted just enough to see Petes bloodshot ones staring back yours, nothing but sorrow and devastation in them as he watched you break. You fell asleep soon after, and the doctors deemed it undetermined when you never woke up. But at the time you weren't sure you wanted to.

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