As the days and weeks went by, mas lalong hindi ko na mapigil yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya. I always feed myself a crap that maybe he has the same feelings for me? Anong magagawa ko? Pano ko itatanggi sa sarili ko na palaging pagkakataon lang yung makikita ko syang nakatingin saken whenever I looked at him. Hindi ko pwedeng itanggi na ngumiti sya saken literally, not just once. He always arched his side lip the moment our eyes met. As if he's trying to imply something.
Ayoko mag-assume. Ayokong umasang baka may gusto rin sya saken. Pero hindi ko maiwasan. Alam ko kasalanan to sa boyfriend ko. I was secretly having a crush. Pero ito pa rin ako pinapanindigang I still know my limits. As long as I wasn't attached to him yet. I dont see any problem with that at all.
Ang hirap lang ng feeling na sinasarili ko lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Until, I decided to tell Lashie, my co-worker, everything. I'm working student by the way. The secret was safe with her. At first syempre, salawahan tingin nya saken for having a secret crush while still having a boyfriend. A long term boyfriend to be exact. Tumigil lang sya nung sinabe kong wala naman akong balak landiin si kuya. Lashie know my standard's when it comes to boy's. Kaya curious din sya. Kaya lang hindi ko maituro sa kanya para makita nya kase ibang way yung workplace namen dun sa dinadaanan ni whatsoever his name.
When my sembreak came. Napilitan akong mag dayshift from work kase na-transfer kame ni Lashie sa sister company ng pinapasukan namen. That time isang linggo ko syang hindi nakita and I swear to God wala kong ibang naiisip sa free time ko kundi sya. I panicked at that moment, hindi na si Seb naiisip ko. Dumating pa yung point na while me and Seb were kissing, I pictured him as if he is the one I was kissing. With that, I killed myself.
BINABASA MO ANG
Wrong Love
Short StoryI made a wrong move for searching his whereabouts. It cause me a wrong heartache, as if i was supposed to feel it. But I could still feel it, because I chose to be in this wrong Love. -LEE
