The PBC

Chapter 33

The rest of the week, Levi didn't see Eren, and he really couldn't care. The next week was Thanksgiving break, and then everyone was back to school. Levi still didn't see Eren. He figured it went back to how it was before he met him, officially. He figured that his mind blocked his image yet again.

Lunch had become awkward. Petra had just stopped sitting with him after she had a nice bitch out at him. Aurou went with her, and Molbit didn't completely follow through with his threat, but Levi did have a pretty good black eye that was, thankfully, healing nicely. The lunch table only consisted of Levi, Erwin, and an irate Hanji.

"You're a stupid fucking asshole prick." She'd hiss. Continually berating Levi for breaking up with Eren. Erwin would say nothing, just sitting down and eating, with a calculatingly cold look on his face.

"I fucking know." Levi said back to Hanji after a week of her bitching. Levi definitely knew. He laid in his room at night and just stared at the ceiling, trying to find out why the fuck his chest felt so unpleasantly tight, why his stomach felt heavy, or why his mind was constantly filled with the thought of Eren's face, crestfallen with tears. And that would make his heart ache.

He would wonder how Eren was doing. If he had moved on and just deemed the black haired boy a lost cause, move on to another player. Would Eren move to date them too? The thought of someone else kissing Eren, touching Eren, seeing Eren's smile and hear him speak in his foreign languages made his gut twist. He wondered if Eren had gotten enough to buy the materials to learn Russian. He wondered if Eren thought of him, if he was angry, if he was indifferent. The thought of Eren crying himself to sleep had crossed Levi's mind once, and he actually felt his eyes sting, so he avoided those thoughts as much as possible.

"Armin?" Hanji said, turning to look to the cafeteria doors. Levi turned to see the blond boy. He had a calculating look just like Erwin's instead of his usual nervous expression. He was heading straight for them. Hanji went to say something, but was cut off when Armin's fist made solid contact with Levi's nose, knocking Levi's head back and the lunch room turned dead silent. Levi held his nose, leaning forward and was happy as hell that it wasn't broken, though it was bleeding.

"Listen here asshole." Armin's tone was cold, and his usual bright sky blue eyes were as cold as the arctic tundra. "I've dealt with your shit long enough. I know you don't care, that much is obvious, but I'm done sitting by watching you just move on." That was a lie. Levi couldn't even think of other people. He didn't think he'd be able to hook up with someone else. "I get it. You're pissed that Eren hid that from you, but was that really any reason to dump him?"

"Ye-" Armin grabbed the front of Levi's shirt.

"You've cheated on him. You're the one with the commitment issues, not him. He was waiting for you to cheat on him more than once, and he had accepted that it was going to be a thing in your relationship until you broke. He didn't do a damn thing to you. You went off the fucking deep end. And you wanna know what? I haven't seen my best friend in almost three fucking weeks!" Tears finally began to shimmer in the younger male's eyes.

"W-Wha-"

"Eren hasn't left his room since you fucking ripped his heart out! Carla has almost had to literally shove food down his throat to make him eat! I've seen one picture of him, and he looks like a fucking corpse! He hasn't been to school and the teachers are beginning to worry. His friends are worried, and Mikasa's a fucking mess. Have you seen that girl cry? I haven't. And I've known her my entire fucking life." Armin pulled Levi closer. "If Eren didn't still fucking love you, I'd-"

"Wait... Eren...." Levi didn't continue as he stared at Armin with slightly wider than usual eyes.

"Yes you dumbass! Eren loves you! He's been telling you in German because he knew you'd flip your shit. Hell, he even started calling you his love! In German! Again, because he knew you'd flip your shit because YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN LOVE!" And Armin finally let him go. "If my friend doesn't recover from this..." The threat hung in the air as the blond finally turned and walked away, right out of the room. The room stayed quiet. Levi just stared at the table. He turned his head when someone cleared their throat.

"Levi." It was Erwin.

"What?" Levi said. Erwin's eyes were slightly narrowed.

"Did you mean it?" He asked. Levi just stared at him.

"Mean what?"

"When you said you loved Eren, before all went to hell." Levi just stared at Erwin, but he slowly nodded his head. "Then why did you break up with him?" Levi was about to open his mouth when Erwin lifted his hand, pointing at Levi sternly. "And if you say it's because he's in the PBC, I will personally kick your ass." Levi's eyes widened slightly.

"H-How did you-"

"My cousin's girlfriend is his cousin." He said. "And according to what she's heard from Carla, Armin sugar coated everything."

"What do you mean?" The looked on Erwin's face made Levi pale more.

"Levi, you need to apologize and get him back." Levi automatically shook his head.

"I can't." Erwin stood.

"Like hell you can't! Levi, Eren's not the only one who hasn't been eating." Levi cocked his head when Erwin pointed at the empty table in front of him. "You haven't been eating either Levi. And I can tell by the way your eyes are sunken in that you haven't been sleeping either. It's a miracle that your black eye is healing properly." Levi just looked down at his lap. It wasn't really a lie. But he just wasn't hungry. "Levi-"

"I get it alright!" Levi shouted. "I fucking get it. But I can't! I just fucking can't!"

"Why not?" Erwin challenged.

"Because!"

"Because what Levi?" He didn't have a retort to that. "Exactly. You have no reason. You're just being a chicken shit about it. You love Eren, it is physically affecting you." Levi was quiet for a few moments before he nodded.

"Je l'aime. Je l'aime et il me manque et je veux qu'il revienne. Je veux que mon Eren revienne." Erwin smiled and nodded. (I love him. I love him and I miss him and I want him back. I want my Eren back)

"I'll bring you to his house after school. I need to bring Farlan so he can bring his girlfriend her homework."