Bullied

My life..

Life is hard , especially when people tell you that your going nowhere. My name is Allie and this is my story. I was born when my mom was 18 because she was a slut and he didnt use protection...its sad to think that guy is my dad, he doesnt want me , he has told me time and time again that i am worthless and a terrible daughter...i cant be a daughter to a father i dont have... I currently live with my abusive moms boyfriend and the slut herself , but dont worry about me , ive lived with this for 16 years. I had a boyfriend but i screwed that up. But thats another story . Things just get worse everyday , people at school hate me , im that ugly emo girl everyone looks at weird , because of my music and wardrobe , well its all part of a daily routine , get up , put on my choice of makeup and clothing , go to school aka prison , come home get beaten on , do homework and cry myself to sleep . I get notes in my locker saying things like , ugly bothersome emo girl , go kill yourself , you wont be missed by anyone...i just cry everytime i see these words...i know im not strong , if i was strong i would stop this , if i were strong i wouldnt cut and think about ending all this suffering and pain . Just to put the gun to my head and pull the trigger , id finally be out of everyones way i would be where i belong ~ we are the fallen angels ~ or maybe we are the risen devils ... ( quote from black veil brides song FALLEN ANGELS )