The Journal Of Sara Revol

Entry 5

The journal entry E.J. read during Sara's panic attack.

"Dear Journal,

It's me, Sara. Today I went to a party with Shelby. I wasn't very sociable there. I was uncomfortable. E.J. and Johnny were there so that made it kind of easier. Shelby had a difficult time talking to people so I was pretty much there for interpretation so she could get to know our peers better since she's not physically able to have a conversation normally. I know that her being deaf is a hereditary thing with her father but I will always feel bad for her because she can't interact normally letting her have more friends.

Anyways, the party started out like a normal middle school party. Shelby walking around either having Johnny sign for her or me. If I wasn't following her around I was sitting in a soft chair listening to music. Well, Shelby came over to me at one point and said that we should play a game. It was Seven Minutes in Heaven. We talked for a little bit about how I didn't think she would be able to play since she just started dating Johnny. She explained how it's not for her it's for me because E.J. was gonna play. I asked why he was playing and she had convinced him to. 

I though it was weird that you would spin the bottle and spend seven minutes in an empty bedroom with another person with the awkward small talk. I really didn't want my first kiss to happen this way but the rules stated we could do whatever we wanted so I would spend my time avoiding the kiss, if I could, and chatting with the other players. Well I played and after about 20 minutes of playing Johnny spun and it landed on me. I really wanted him to be my first kiss so I was happy about it but I didn't wanna give away that I liked him so I tried to hide it.  We kissed and I really liked it.

Well, later on that night towards the end of the game a few older guys walked in they were the brother and brothers friend of the person throwing the party one joined the game and I landed on him. When I went to talk for seven minutes about pointless conversation. He went to pretty much throw me on the bed and he held me down. He covered my mouth and told me to behave and stay quiet. I kept trying to fight back but he was so strong compared to my limp 8th grade girl body. I was scared. I couldn't hold in tears when he told me to stop crying all he did was cover my mouth and then he kept fondling me and tearing away clothes. When I got the chance I kicked him off then nut-stomped him. I quickly dressed myself again and ran. I ran into E.J. and told him to get Shelby and Johnny.

We stayed a little while longer but it was to late I was raped and couldn't do anything about it. I have to try and sleep. Night.

Signed,

Sara Revol"