The Day When

I'm waiting for the day

When all of this will end

And you'll no longer call me friend 

I push you farther and farther away 

Yet you've stayed close mostly when I've cried 

I'm waiting for the day when the world goes black 

Do you know how and what I feel 

Do you understand that pain is very real 

I push thoughts of you farther and farther back 

Yet you've stayed close on this confusing life ride 

I'm waiting for the day when the world goes black and I am found 

What will you say when all of this happens 

What if your thought is simply "it depends" 

I push my feelings for you farther and farther down 

Yet you've stayed close when I hide 

I'm waiting for the day when the world goes black and I am found and life for you is fine 

But who am I to such naive beliefs 

But who am I to avoid you and hope to lessen your grief 

Yet you'll be with me long after I have died 

Forever I will love you long after my suicide