I love you as (gmw/Riarkle)

Chapter one

I sit on a chair in Topangas next to Lucas. Maya broke up with him and he asked me out a little while later. Maya started dating someone else so everything seems fine although, we still can't talk. Were sitting in silence as Farkle walks in.
"Really! This again? You guys need to get over this phase."
What if it's not a phase. I mean, apparently Maya poured a smoothie on his head because she didn't want it to be quiet but I could never do that. What if we never talk. Suddenly, I see a hand waving in front of my face.
"Sorry." I say, looking at Lucas.
"You okay?"
"I'm just tired."
"I'll walk you home." I look at Farkle who is looking at me.
"I'll see you tomorrow." I almost don't want to leave him. Why? I stand up and walk out with Lucas. We walk through the street in silence. When we get to my apartment, I snap back to the real world to feel Lucas kissing me. I can't kiss back. I just can't. I don't know why but my body won't let me. He steps back.
"What is it?"
"It's nothing."
"If this is about Ma-"
"It's not."
"Then what is it."
"I really don't know."
"How can I help."
"You can't help with what I don't know but you can answer a question."
"Okay."
"Did you chose me because Maya has someone else. You can tell the truth. All I want is the truth. I want to know why this isn't right. I want to know if it's me. The truth will make me happy."
"I-I"
"Think about it. Tell me at school. Goodnight."
"Goodnight." I open the door and walk in. I almost want him to say that he would have chosen Maya although I know it would hurt. I just want to be able to know what I feel and not have them locked inside. I'm terrified of what he will say.
"Hi, hun." Said my mom.
"Hi, mom."
"What's the matter?"
"Nothing."
"Riley?"
"I'm really tired. I think I'm gonna go sleep."
"Okay. Did everything go okay?"
"Ya. I'm just a little confused."
"You'll be confused you're whole life."
"But you and dad were Cory and Topanga. You were perfect."
"No one is perfect, hun."
"I'm just gonna go to bed now."
"Okay, you can always come talk to me."
"I know that. Good night."
"Goodnight."