Unwanted- A Felicite Tomlinson Fanfic

Part 22

As I lay alone in my bed I could feel my blood boiling. My left eye was swollen and my wrists had bandages that were soaked in blood. My heart was beating so fast and my body refused to calm down. My head was spinning. And I was ashamed of everything. What if Louis saw me like this? Or the twins? Lottie? Louis would feel so guilty, Lottie would feel so scared, and the twins looked up to me. I wanted them to see me as a strong person, not a weak beaten girl laying helplessly on the floor.

I didn't sleep well. I woke up roughly every thirty minutes. I knew I was supposed to meet Louis at noon but what if I left with the girls now? It was currently five in the morning. I realized we would have to wait a while but I think we would be safer.

I snuck into Lottie's room. I really wished I had learned my lesson the first time though. Martin was asleep in her bed. But I needed to talk to Lottie very badly. "Lottie." I whispered. "Yes?" She asked softly. "Come to my room, we need to talk." Lottie followed me into my room and turned on the light.

"Oh my God your eye!" Lottie screamed. "Shhhh!" I whispered fiercely. "You'll wake mum!" "Felecite!" Lottie said before she broke down. I hugged her awkwardly. "Lottie we will talk about this later." I said. And then she saw it.

"Have you cut yourself?" She said, tears streaming down her cheeks. "Lottie please, I need to talk to you." I said, desperately trying to change the subject. She only grabbed my wrist. I couldn't help but wince as she took in the scars. Then she removed the bandage and saw the word carved in my skin. "You are not a freak!" "Lottie mum did that one." "Mum cuts you too? That bitch! You would think she would have some common sense. That woman deserves to go to jail, better yet rot in hell!"

"Please be quiet Lottie! Mum will just come in here and cut me some more or you for that matter. I need to talk to you." I could tell it took all her will power but Lottie finally fell silent. "We were supposed to meet Louis at noon but I'm thinking we should go now and wait for him. I want to get out of here as soon as possible. What time does mum usually wake up?" "She wakes around 1 or 2 mostly." Lottie said. "That's good, we will have a 1-2 hour start. Can you get your stuff and the twins and meet me at the front door?" I asked. "Sure." Lottie said. "Oh, and Lottie..." "Yeah?" "You might want to send Martin home." "Oh yes, of course." Lottie said blushing.

I went into my room and grabbed my already packed bags. I looked around at my old room, remembering the painful memories. Then I shut the door and headed downstairs, as quietly as possible. 

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