Rainbow
"I hate this life. I'd rather end this misery!" I hear the loud shout of the girl in front of the building, I heard the nervous crowd beside me.
People commit suicide, people attempt to kill somebody, people started to throw the real gift that's been given since they're all born.
Life.
If only they know how to appreciate the gift and the problems they're facing rather than complaining. They should be grateful that they're normal, that they can do whatever they want, that they can just have fun and cease life. Hindi nila alam na yun ang gustong gusto ko, to have a normal life, have fun and go wherever I want.
I'm about to vacate the area cause it's too crowded and I don't care who's that stupid girl trying to kill her precious life. If only she can give me that life she wanted to waste, I'll accept that automatically.
"I want my ex to come back for me, please... I'm desperate to have him again." I stopped when I heard those, I never imagined na dahil sa lalaki sisirain niya ang buhay niya. Pathetic.
"Don't waste your precious life just because of someone who doesn't even care. If I were you, I'll cease every moment of my life." I shouted then stormed out as the crowd gave way.
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"Is there any possibility that my daughter will live longer?" I heard my mom asked the doctor. I'm lying in my hospital bed right now after they found me yesterday when I escaped from here.
My doctors, yes doctors diagnosed me having leukemia. Clichè isn't it? As others have said, there is no cure for it.
We moved out from Philippines because my parents were too desperate to find a cure---which I think will never happen. I lost hope but never my belief, I've accepted it right from the start that I will never have my own family, I will never have a normal life. Puro pasakit, puro doctor ang nakikita ko at walang kaibigan but I guess it made me stronger than before.
"3 years." The doctor answered then I hear the loud cry of my Mom. I heard the sobs of my Dad but I have no expression. They don't know that I'm wide awake that's why. I accept the fact that I'm going to die soon but there is a part of me hoping that the doctors will find a cure for my illness. Desperate? Yes.
"Is there anything you can do? She's my only daughter, I have too much wealth and money to give just for you to save my daughter. She's our treasure. Please find a way. Please. I'm begging you." I heard my mother's voice in between of her sobs.
With those lines I felt that anytime I'm going to break down. I thought maiiwanan ko sila ng ganun, hindi pala. Ayaw ko silang iwan, ayoko ko pang iwan ang mga magulang ko. I still want to enjoy, gusto ko pa pumunta sa iba'tibang bansa not because of my illness but to have fun. But in 3 years time mawawala na ako sa mundo. Only my parents would weep upon my loss but still sila ang ayaw na ayaw kong iwanan. I love them more than anything else.
"Just believe Ma'am all of us are trying to find another solution. I hope we can help your daughter but as of now, we'll still continue her medications. Just pray Ma'am. Just believe." The doctor answered my Mom and then tapped the shoulders of my Dad then walked outside the room.
I pretended na bagong gising lang ako hiding the fact na, alam ko na ang lahat. Still hoping that everything will be fine especially when we believe to the miraculous power of the Lord.
"Mom? Dad? Are you crying?" I asked in a concerned tone, though I know they were.. No.. They're actually crying.
"No anak.. You fine?" Mom checked.
