Melanin Beauty

chapter 21

M: Danny
Kim
I was laying down in the hospital bed watching reruns of teen mom.

I had a lot of my mind... Am I really ready to be a mom was the question that was in my mind. It didn't even matter if I was or was not because I am determined to raise my baby the best way I know how.. I know that the choices and things that I have done lately was messed up. But I cant help but to think about tiara and how she's feeling I really do miss her. I know she probably wants to kill me and taking her frustrations out on everybody but that's just plan old T.

I heard my room door opened snapping me out of my thoughts my doctor and Jamal came into the room.
I was happy to see him but not so happy. I feel horrible for what I have done and did with him. I feel shameful and embarrassed.

" you have a visitor" my doctor told me before exiting the room.

" hey" Jamal said to me. Pulling up a chair beside me and then grabbing my hand. " how you doing?" He asked me with a faint smile.

" I'm good, how about you" I questioned hoping he would tell me exactly the way he's been feeling. Because lately i've been having mixed emotions

" I'm good just nervous" he told me standing up leaning over me, kissing my forehead and sitting back down.

I smiled " you and me both."

The room became silent as I looked over at the TY. the only thing that you could hear. Besides my beeping monitor.

" have you talked to Tiara?" I asked him out breaking the silence between us.

" hell no, why would I talk to her!" Jamal yelled at me.

I shrugged my shoulders at his outburst. He seemed off, he wasn't as calm as he used to be around me. He seemed to be thinking and he looked to be angry.

His eyes wondered over to my belly and then to my face.

"Is-" he stopped talking before he shook his head.

" what?" I asked.

" nothing" he replied standing up.

" where you going?" I asked him

" I'll be back." He told me walking out the my room door slamming it shut.

I looked up at the ceiling and then my belly before rubbing its.

" its alright." I whispered as I looked back at the TV.

Alexis
I just got finished telling Ya'ria what happened between me and Tiara.

She looked at me shaking her head.
" she like Danny?" She asked me just in much shock as I was.

I nodded my head.

She shook her head " hell...naw" she said. Looking at me.

We were at Danny's house sitting on his bed. As him and the boys were in the living room watching ESPN(sports channel)

" I'm surprised you not with Joshua all snuggled up." I joked.

She laughed but then pouted at me.
" he acting funny" she said shaking her head and scratching the back of her neck.

" how?" I questioned.

She loudly sighed as she looked away from me and then back at me.

" because he's not paying any attention to me okay I come over here right and I see him in the living room. I looked at him and smiled and this nigga said hey and looked back at the TV." She squinting her eyes.