A song of my hate (Sasori x reader)

Little cute oneshot o yes bby

  "Every bit of every word that falls out of my mouth
I swear is nothing but the truth"

I looked up to the sky and thought about all the times I had spent with you, my dear _____.
I thought about all the things I could have done better, all the things I could have said... before I became my own, emotionless puppet.

"I hate you right down to the bone
I don't want you to be by me I hope you'd just leave"

I had shouted those words, those disgusting, horrible words, to the only person who had ever cared and worried except for Lady Chiyo. I pushed you back for the fear of losing you. You wished for nothing but my love, my affection... and I was too blind to see that. Even in those final moments.

"And someday I know that all this pain will melt away and see
Everyone will be just smiling on for all eternity
You, who I hate, with every fiber of my being
Are still breathing, feeling fine, and living on care free
Living on still as you still breathe...."

NO! You brought this onto yourself! _____! You should never have come close to something you can't control! ...Yeah that was it... all she was trying to do was... control you...

"Every bit of every word that falls out of my mouth
I swear is nothing but the truth
It's true I hate you right down to the bone
Even when your stomach groans, I don't really care"

I know for a fact _____, I felt nothing seeing you in pain. Even when you were dying in front of me, you, _____, were just someone else who never truly cared. Your death... it meant nothing to me.

"You, who I hate, with every fiber of my being
I can see you when I want and that will always be...
I can see you anytime I want...."

It's not like I ever wanted to see you in my life anyway. I mean, you were always so annoying, following me like a dog. I was...

"Every bit of every word that falls out of my mouth
Is really nothing but a lie
So please I hope you didn't listen to me...
I really hope you just ignore me please..."

Lying. Not just to you, to myself. Every time I come to visit you, I just go crazy trying to convince myself that all the lies are true. I know they're not. You were my best friend, the girl I loved- No I still love you. Well... not really because I'm a puppet but... I have the memory of love. The memory of loving you.

"Everyone knows that the end will surely come for them someday!
You, who I love, with every fiber of being
All I wanted was to be with you and never leave
But I can't because I lied then you were gone
I was a liar right up to the end
I was a liar right up to the end"

I'm sorry, ____. I ended lying to myself again, the thoughts of you not being here... I don't know what it is. Maybe it's... not a feeling but the fact I know that something has been missing for a long time. Heh, maybe that's still a feeling but it's a feeling only for you.

"But in such a pretty world we both had loved
Just know I'm living on for both you and me
Just know I'm living on for both you and me"

I shall come to visit you next year, that's a promise. Maybe I can stop lying to us by then.

With that, Sasori left the fresh flowers on _____'s makeshift grave and left the memory of her for another year...