The Girl Who Fell From The Sky

Miserable

*Before Gracelynn became an angel*

I just wanted to fit in. Just wanted to be different.. Why didn't people accept me? Why was I so...ruined? I didn't understand why people didn't like me, for who I really was. I just wanted love.. As I walked down the hallway of my highschool, the girl I envied nudged me to were my elbow had hit the lockers, causing my books to fly up in the air, and fall in a loud slam. All eyes were on me. "S-sorry.." I apologized to everyone. All of them began mumbling and whispering. This was getting out of hand, I needed someone.. I picked up all of my books. I expected somebody to help, but that didn't happen. I look around me. The whole world spinning in circles. I manage to run to the bathroom. I ran into the stall and felt like I was gonna vomit. I kept shaking terribly..I had goosebumps up and down my arms. I quivered and gagged. Nothing but blood was in the toilet. My eyes got wide. After 10 minutes of nonstop puking, I made my way to the guidance (aka clinic) and barged through the door. "M-may I help you??" The women asked. "Yes..please..m-my head and I was puking. Please let me go home..." I pleaded. She nodded her head and ran to the phone. I spotted myself in a mirror. Jesus..I looked terrible. The bags under my eyes, my pale skin, my nonstop shaking.. The woman came back. "Alright! You may take a seat, and I guess your mother? Will be picking you up?" She says. She was wrong.. It was my step mother but yah..I guess she can say that. I just nodded. "Honey you're freezing! Here, I'll go get you a blanket." She says running to a closet. She wraps it around me and looks at me sadly. "Darling..what's eating you alive?" She asks. Did she really just ask me that? Was she implying that I was pregnant? Or on drugs? "Nothings wrong with me miss, I'm just..broken." I say with a slight smile. She frowns. My stepmother comes through the door. "Oh god! Thank goodness you're okay! C'mon, let's get you home and cozy." My step mom says helping me up.

She walks me out of the school, and helps me in the car.
As we drive for about ten minutes in silence, I could tell she wanted some answers. "So..what's up? Do you know what's wrong?" She asks. I shake my head no. She nods. "Okay okay..uh...please don't tell me you're pregnant..." She says. Ugh. How come they think I would do that? For crying out loud I don't even have a boyfriend! "No Amy, I'm not pregnant.." I say with an annoying expression. "Okay okay! Don't get fussy with me. I was just asking." She says.
I shake my head. We finally arrive home. I ran through the door, ignoring my father who was in the dining room fixing dinner. I run up the stairs and into my room. I heard my Amy and my dad talking about how my day was going. I heard them say something about a disease they think I have. Uh no. I do not think I have a disease! I can here the lady in the guidance offices words ring in my ears. "Darling, what eating you alive?" Several echo's rang into my ears. I fell to my floor growling and screaming. "Aghhh..!" I say intensely holding my head. I look up at myself..I looked so miserable. I screamed once I heard a loud beeping noise in my ear. "Agh!!" I screamed hysterically. I scraped my nails on my neck and my face. I feel like I'm falling apart. After about an hour, my room fell silent. There, I lay in the middle of my room, sobbing, curled up in a ball. I was cold. I slowly get up, and decided to take a shower. I removed my clothes and turned on the hot water. It was nice and warm. I felt so relieved and peaceful. I slowly put one leg into the warm water, and the other leg in. I don't think I can even stand up! I don't even bother washing my hair. I'm just here for hot water. I felt like I had a fever, or a head cold. I hear a knock on my bathroom door. "Sweety dinners done!" My father says. "Okay I'll he out in a few!" I say loudly. I hear him walk away. I look down to the floor. My head hanging low. I just wanted to stay here all day. I didn't feel like eating either. I finally turned the water off, and grabbed my towel and headed to my room to put on my pajama pants and a tank top. I was beginning to be a little warmer now. I slowly stepped down the stairs slowly holding onto the rail. My dad looked at me weird. "Uh..honey? Y-you alright?" He asks. "Yah.." I say assuring him everything is okay. I sit down at the end of the table away from my parents. I played with my food the whole time. "Um...I'm sorry dad. I'm not hungry.." I say pushing away my plate and standing up. "Why? Its your favorite meal!" He says standing up too. "Dad I'm not hungry just stop." I say. "No. You tell me what's wrong. Is it at school again?" He asks. "Dad please just-" he cuts me off. "No! Grace you better tell me now or I'm not gonna be so nice today!" He threatens. I hold my head. Oh no..it started aching really bad again. "D-dad..." I say as I fell to the floor. I blacked out I'm sure of it.
3:57 am.
I wake up in the hospital...my eyes trying to adjust to the white walls and bright lights. I look to my right to see someone who looks familiar..
It was my brother Harley. Wow, its been years since I've seen him! I smile when he walks over to me. "Hey, how yuh feeling?" He asked. "Better." I say as I sit up. I look around expecting my dad to pop in any time soon. "Where's dad and Amy?" I ask. He just stares at me for a minute. "Um. Well I don't know, they were here earlier, perhaps they went home?" He says. His words stab me in the heart. They couldn't have just left there 17 year old daughter in the hospital! I looked at him with a stupid look. "Uhm. No, they didn't leave me. They couldn't have! If they did, that really pisses me off! They...they shouldn't do that to me! They'd know it would hurt me too much.." I say loudly. They can't just leave me without information! Does...he not care for me? After about 2 hours of nonstop conversations with Harley, (I know we haven't talked in a while just go with it..) my dad walks in with a worried look. "We are so sorry, we had to leave..I needed to clear my head." He says. Amy stands on the other side of the bed. My dad stood on the end staring at me with sadness. "I'm sorry I pushed you to the edge.." He begins. "You just never really talk to me anymore ever since mom passed. I'm just trying to build your trust again, I want you to be you again Grace.." He says. No ones really called me Grace since...mom. A tear escaped my eye. And then it became a river.. Amy holds my hand. "Gracelynn..I love you I really do..I may be your step mom, and you don't have to call me mom. I don't wanna force you, I know what you feel, I've gone through this before...." She says with a serious look. "Please Grace..trust me. I want to be there for you, and love you, as much as I can.. I know you don't have room in your heart for me, but I have room in my heart for you." She says with a smile. I hold her hand tighter and smile and cry at the same time.. She let's go of my hand, and takes off her necklace, and puts it in my hands. "Keep this with you. And let it remind you, its a beautiful world out there Gracelynn.." She says with a sad look. All at once I stated feeling darkness closing around me..I hear them shouting but I left.

"Grace! S-stay with me...GRACE. YOU HAVE TO COME TOWARDS THE LIGHT, DONT GO BACK! DO YOU HEAR ME? Stay with me.." They say.
I awoke in tears. Doctors and surgeons around me, they hold me down. I didn't understand. All of them let go, and that's when I see Amy.. "Baby, she's awake! Come here! Hey! Don't touch her! LEAVE HER ALONE!!!" She screamed as doctors pulled her away. I sat up. Looking around, I wanted answers. I felt a pang of sharpness in my wrist. "Wha?" It was too late..
12:44 am
I feel pain. Lots of it. I believe its been..what? A day now? I've been in this hospital for a day. A GOD DAMN DAY, AND I DONT HAVE ANY ANSWERS YET. "Grace..." Someone says. I look to my right to see my dad running to my side. "Grace! Oh my god! Thank god you're alive!" My dad says grinning. "Dad...what's wrong with me..?" I ask grabbing his hand. He frowns. "Uh. Well, Grace the you see, the um..doctors say that..you have.. stage 4 cancer..." He says with tears. No..this...is how my-my mom left..NO. Please..tell me I'm okay right? "Am I g-gonna be okay??" I asked. He looks up sadly. He shakes his head no slowly. I sob still holding his hand. He knelt down beside me,"Everything's gonna be okay.." He says. Yah. That's what you told mom..."No..no you aren't, you won't have me or mom with you anymore..I don't want to leave you dad. Please..I'm too scared daddy. Don't let me go." I say. He just stared into my eyes sadly. "What makes you think I'd let go?" He says trying to make things happy. Yah its not gonna work..
"I love you dad.." I say. "Love you more." He says with a smile.

Gracelynn has been fighting for 4 months...she now takes her last breathe..

I feel my chest rising up and down heavily. I still don't understand why my ears were ringing that one day..that has nothing to do with cancer right? Oh no..my heart started feeling...strange. It beats faster now. I press the red button signaling nurses in. "Agh!" I say holding my aching chest. I breathe harder and more intense now..struggling. I couldn't stop now. Its over. Goodbye everyone. My life..is wasted. I see darkness closing in around me. My breathing struggles once more, all at once, it just..stopped.

//Hey guys! So sorry if this makes you depressed, I'm a very..depressed kind of a person. Literally. I make everyone around me sad. But I assure you, I will make MORE happy things on here! So bare with me...and yah ik this kinda ends badly but the magic begins in the next chapter! BYE I LURV U GUYS!//