Dilemma

Chapter 2:

JaLyssa's P.O.V.

"Fix the fucking attitude JaLyssa!" Jadarius said harshly while putting on some clothes getting ready to leave like usual.

" I wouldn't have an attitude if you would just stay home sometimes instead of always being in the streets like you don't have other priorities!" I yelled back at him trying to get him to understand where I'm coming from.

" whatever man.. I don't got time for this shit." He said pulling his long dreads into a pony tail and walking out of our bedroom.

"You could at least say bye to your son!" I shouted after him.

I saw his shadow go into the direction of Jr.'s room. Sighing I just laid back on the bed looking at the ceiling wondering why I stayed in the situation I was in knowing the consequences that came with with it.

A few minutes later he came and stood in the doorway.

"You know I hate arguing and shit but you know what I do and I thought you said you could handle all that comes with it?" He said leaning against the door frame.

" I thought I could too but now it's just too stressful. How do you think I would feel if I heard that you were shot and killed?!" I said growing emotional trying to hold in my tears.

"Haven't you realized that I'm not going out like that. I'm way too careful to be caught slipping." He said with a smirk on his face.

"Even the greatest get caught.."

"Well what do you want me to do? I can't just leave, I'm Kingpin which means the only way I'm leaving is in a casket."

"Just forget it go handle yo business." I said dropping the conversation.

"Nah I can't forget it now because you still mad at a nigga." He said taking his shoes off and laying next to me in bed.

"You're staying?" I asked turning so that I was facing him.

He smacked his lips."Yea man.. Now go back to sleep its seven in the morning."

He pulled off his t-shirt and laid back with just his sweat pants on pulling me close to him.

"I'm not trying to be one of those cry baby ass girls that complains every time they man has to leave but I miss you and Jr. does too."

He kissed me making me roll on top of him placing my legs on either side of his waist.

"I be missing y'all too, y'all my heart and I would kill for you guys any day without hesitation."

"I know that but can you try to stay at least two or three days out of the week at home, all day?" I asked hopeful.

"Yea baby I can do that. But I want you to remember you the only person besides my son that can make me go soft." He said seriously.

"I know because you act like a big baby at home, but as soon as you get around other people you wanna act tough as shit" I said laughing at how his face turned into a mug instantly.

"Because people will underestimate a nigga that's nice all the time. But if you mean then shit they'll be cautious." He said rubbing on my booty with his big hands.