Unrequited Love

Chapter One - Honey the beginning is nothing

You may think this will be the type of story that every one tells but this is the truth not a story the cold hard truth.

My life was going perfect until I saw him in P.E, it was love at first sight for me, when I told my friend Clarice Bertinelli she said I was stupid because he already had a girlfriend. Quick background of Clarice, she was born in Paris, France but moved to New Zealand when she was 3 months old. A few days later we had P.E last period and after on the bus Clarice, Lucy and Me where talking on the us about Fox Mulder, Mulder for short (the guy I have a HUGE crush on), and with my luck me and my big mouth I was talking a bit too loud when he walks on the bus, shortly after the bus gets on its way one of his friends asks me a question, I reluctantly turning around to hear what he was asking, but the bus was so loud that I just said "NO" and turned back around to my friends trying to have a good time talking to them, while in my head I was think what he asked me and since Mulder was next to him he probably asked his friend to ask me if I had a crush on him. Quick background on Lucy she was born in America and lived there until she was four and came to live in New Zealand. I couldn't stop thinking about it if he knew, until the next day when I walked into maths and Clarice walked in behind me and when I sat down, she walked in a few seconds later and tells me that he pointed me out to one of this friends when I walked into maths as his math class is the one across from mine. The rest of the lesson I didn't do much work the only think I could think of was that he probably knows that I have a crush on him and that would make school even harder for me for the next 2 months left. That weekend I was going to my friend Katherina's, Kate for short. This gave me the chance to let it all out because she is great at listening, but not even talking could help me with the up coming weeks of school.
For the next few weeks it was living hell for me in P.E because I would do nothing and stand there shy and not do much because I was scared that if I did anything I may make a fool out of myself as usual. One afternoon everything was perfect I had forgotten all about him and finally after days of being depressed I was happy and cheerful and I was careless happy until I tagged onto the bus with my AThop card and swung around the bar and saw him sitting there in his sit wait for his friend and I panicked and found a sit at the front far enough away from him and the smile on my face drop to a frown and the cheerful laughing to silence, as I walked to the sit waiting for Lucy. And this went on for a few weeks as he had to catch my bus on a Tuesday day to go to soccer what was just down the road from my house and ever so often I would see a amazing smile from him when he looked back while talking to his friends and seeing that smile gave my a spark of happiness inside and put a smile on my face to see him so happy as I was dead inside and I knew I would never to able to be with him but that never kill the way I felt about him. A few weeks later it was the last day of school and we had prize giving, everyone either sitting in a seating arrangement if you won a prize and if you were not getting a prize you would sit in your form class, I sat next to a new friend Casey and her friend Lucas, I always found him annoying and to get me worked up he kept calling out to Mulder and a few times he looked behind and looked away, but I had finally had enough of it and I lightly punched Lucas in the face. he got back at me by calling out to Mulder and saying I had something to say to him and being me I was shy and when I released that he was not going to stop staring at me with his perfect smile, I looked into my lap with my arms and hands supporting my head. After about 3 minutes I turned to Casey and asked if he was still looking and she replied with a yes, then she looked up towards Mulder and said Fox can you like stop staring at Jane, thanks. I could finally look up with my checks as red as a tomato with my eyes looking glasses with Casey asking me if I was fine, and not wanting anything to be turned into a big deal I said yes and brush it off my shoulder as it was nothing, but it wasn't nothing as it hurt me as this mixed my emotion in a way I couldn't control and it drove me insane, but at the end of the day I made it through and off I was to the two months of holidays.