Tiny (boyxboy)

*four* Regrets

I opened my eyes and blinked at the blinding light that filtered through my blinds. I tried to sit up but felt a sudden, hot pain all over, wincing, I looked down at the sleeping man on my bed and giggled. I shook his shoulder.

"Danny.. C'mon, get up" I said softly, he grunted in response. "Nooo, get. Up." I laughed and shook him harder. He finally opened his eyes and looked at me, at first a soft smile was on his face, but then it changed and his eyes widened.  

He sat straight up and gasped, looking at my pale, thin naked body, then down at his slightly more tan and muscular naked body.  

"Did.. Did we..?" He bit his lip and looked at me, all I could do was nod and cover myself up, I felt disgusting. "Fuck, Andy.. I'm sorry.. It never should have happened" he ran a shaky hand through his hair and looked at me.

I shrugged and frowned, looking away from him. "Danny..." I whispered softly.

"Yeah?" He pushed a piece of my hair out of my eyes and looked at me.

"T..that was my first time.." I stammered at him and tears formed around my eyes.

I wanted to die right then, just curl up in fetal position and die. I've never felt so awful about myself before, even looking in a mirror isnt this bad. I had given away my innocence to my drunk friend.

He cupped my cheeks and sighed gently, wiping away my tears with his thumb. "Andy.. I'm sorry.. It should have never happened" he said to me, meaning his words to be gentle and reassuring, but instead they made me angry. I pushed him away and glared.

"YOU kissed me! YOU fucked me! Not the other way around! YOU used me, Danny!" I shouted and trembled as the anger took over my body, I so badly wanted to hit him, to scream and kick and punch and cry.

He looked at me and frowned, he looked hurt. Good.

"Andy.. I was drunk.." He whispered, I shook my head and glared at him even harder.

"That is NOT an excuse for what happened!" I shouted at him, he tried to pull me into his arms but I pushed away again, I didnt want his touch.

"Andy.. Im sorry.." He said gently, I broke down then, throwing myself on him and sobbing into his chest. I couldn't help myself, I needed someone to love me, for once, to love me.