His Hazel Eyes

Chapter 11

I wake up rubbing away the sleep from my eyes and looking over at the time on my new clock.

5:15am

I look around my new room. I put the poster up by myself seeing as what happened yesterday I figured Gerard wouldn't want to help.

I get up and head for the shower seeing as its Monday and we have school. I close the door turning on the hot water and stripping out of my pjs.

I take my time seeing as I have a good amount of time before I even head out the door. I finish washing my hair and body then I step out turning the water off and wrapping a towel around my body walking out to my room where I close my door and grab some clothes for the day.

I pick a Get Scared band-t, my favorite black ripped skinny jeans and my gray converse. I get dress and sit down at my vanity looking at y self then grab my brush doing my hair, I put on a little makeup then decide that I'm done.

I pull on my black leather jacket also grabbing my phone and bag then I head down stairs. I see Michelle in the kitchen and she waves me over.

"Hey sweetie why are you leaving so early? it's only 6:20, the boys well walk with you I think there getting ready now" she says handing me a cup of coffee

"I woke up a little early so I thought I'd take a shower.." I say sipping the hot goodness in my hands I hear a door open and close and I look over my shoulder to see Gerard.

I turn back looking down at my cup "morning sweetie!" Michelle says happily to her son and hands him a cup of coffee "morning" he says in a mumble walking pass me.

Mikey soon comes down and gets his own cup of heaven and the room falls into an awkward silents. I drink the rest of my coffee then put the cup
In the sink.

"I'm going" I say "the boy can go with you?" Michelle says as I walk backwards to the door "no I'm fine" I side smile turning around and opening the door.

I shut it behind me and take out my ear buds turning on my music starting my walk to hell.

*********time leap************

Emily finds me at lunch and we sit with the boys I have my music in tapping my finger to the beat as everyone has there own conversation.

Emily taps my shoulder and I take out one of my ear buds "yea?" I ask "aren't you hungry?" she asks I shake my head no "are you sure? ill give you have of my sandwich" she says pointing to it "no, I'm good" I say.

After that she goes back to talking to frank and I find myself glancing at Gerard who is right across from me. he's drawing like normal, taking quick bites for his food and then going back to drawing.

I look down at my arm messing with a string on my jacket sleeve until I feel myself get yanked back by my hood of my jacket and I fall to the ground hitting my head.

I hear laughing from above me also yelling. I looking up to see some stupid jocks along with there girl friends looking at me laughing and then I see three trays for gross school lunches get dumped on top of me.

They then throw there trays on me walking off laughing I wipe the food off my face getting up and grabbing my bag, running to the bathroom hearing my friends call after me and the laughs of other teens behind me.

I get into the bathroom running into the biggest stall and closing it. I slide down the wall silently crying and sniffling into my hands. I remove my hands and dig threw my bag until I find my small little shinny friend.

I roll up my sleeve of my food covered jacket and slide it against my wrists making the cuts seeping blood as I go. before I could get to where a wanted I hear Emily and... wait why are the guys in here?!

"I don't think we are suppose to be in here" frank says"Oh shut up" Emily says "kas where are you?" she asks. I look down at my bleeding arm and shake my head "go away" I say sniffing.

I hear her come up to the stall I'm in and try to open it but I quickly lock it and sit back down against the wall. she sighs "please come out kas" she begs "their just a bunch of dumasses" she says.

"J-just go away!" I say felling my tears come back and I take the blade to my wrist cutting it again. I then hear the lock come undone and I put my head down in my knees.

I hear a gasp and then Emily comes over to me kneeling I front of me, she grabs the blade from my blood covered hand and looks at me her eyes filled with sadness.

"W-what where you trying to do?" she asks her voice shaky and eyes watery "I'm s-sorry" I say tears streaming down my face. she hugs me then pulls away looking at my arm.

"Come here" she helps pull me up holding my arm out to where no more blood well get anywhere and we walk out of the stall over to the sink.

I hear more gasps as she turns the water on in the sink and puts my arm under it. I look up to see the guys over by the door staring at me whit shocked faces, but Gerard's face has more sadness in it than anything.

I look back down at the sink watching the blood rinse off of my skin reveling how deep they actually where. "what the hell Kasper?!" I look up and see the frank said that "you could have killed-" "shut up frank!" Emily yells cutting him off.

I yank my arm away from her and turn grabbing my bag from the stall and pushing pass the guys walking out into the empty hall.

"Kas wait!" I hear frank say and I turn to see everyone out of the bathroom looking at me "y'know made that's what I was trying to do" I say looking at frank and the turning walking out of the school.

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At around 10pm I leave the park and head back to Gerard and Mikey's house. Michelle has been calling me non stop since 6pm.

I open the door and quickly run the stairs to my room where I close my door and lock it. I change into a long sleeve gray shirt and black sweats throwing my dirty clothes in the hamper.

I hear a knock on my door and I unlock it opening it and little to see Gerard standing there. I go to shut it but he stops it grabbing my hands and pulling me into a well needed hug.

I melt into the hug feeling safe as I feel he's arms wrap them selfs around my shoulders and mine around his waist. "I'm so sorry.." I sniff feeling my eyes water and Gerard hugs me tighter "please don't do it again, please" he begs he's voice shaky.

"Gerard I-" "please Kasper.." he begs, I sigh leaning into him more "okay, I promise"