On the Other Side

18 Shiloh's POV

"Get. in the. FUCKING. CAR!" Sage hissed through her teeth

I pulled away from Brian with so much force I practically jumped in the car. He looked at me smirking that Brian smirk. At this moment I am not really sure what my face read but I felt like I had stupid tattooed on my forehead because that's how I felt.

"I take it my number will be on your cheek tonight?" he smiled

Is he freaking kidding me? Why did I let him kiss me?

"No it wont and if think some piece of shit kiss is going to win her over you are more worthless then I thought!" Sage was practically fuming that I just let him make a fool out of me for the thousandth time now.

"I am pretty sure Shi can speak for herself, right babe?" He reached for my hand through the window

"Oh cut the 'I love you so much' bullshit because no one is buying it." Sage argued

"Shut the hell up!" he yelled causing me to snap out of my 'I'm an idiot' daze. "Now baby you're going to be writing that number on your cheek right?"

I only had time to look him in the eyes and say "No."

Then Sage sped off almost running over Brian's feet.

"What in the absolute fuck was that?" she yelled

"I honestly don't know literally all my self-control went out the window the moment he got so close to me." I explained, "Sage please don't be mad, I don't want him back. I don't believe him I-I-I just lost it for a second. But I am not taking him back."

I was trying so hard to convince my friend that I wasn't weak. I was trying to convince her that I knew I deserved better.

"Listen you have to be stronger than that. I know you loved him babe but nothing last forever, especially not a perfect boyfriend. You may have had something once, but you have given him way too many chances just for him to show you that he does not love you, in everyway but killing you."

She was right, Me and Brian were healthy for two years and literally within the last year he has been nothing but awful and I was foolish and ran back.

"All I am saying is the next time you even think about getting close to sad excuse for anything think about he wasn't there when everything happened. Think about where he was when you needed him the absolute most."

"Yeah, I know." was all I could say as tears started to run down my cheeks. I hated when Sage brought up the past. I hated the past so much. I just couldn't wait to leave behind here in this crappy town.

"Moving on to brighter subjects," I could feel her watching me wipe away my little tears, " We are hereee " she sang.

I nodded still kind of flustered.

"Hey!" Sage snapped, " Suck all that shit up! Not tonight, we are going to have fun tonight okay?"

She grabbed me and started hugging me in front of the mall entrance. This made me only want to start crying again, but Sage was right. I had to get over everything eventually and besides I was going to have tonight.

"Hell yeah!" I smiled