No matter how hard I try, I do everything wrong. No one believes me when I say I didn't try to. I try my hardest to do what I can, but they only notice when I do things wrong. In school I struggle in a subject and get no help. I try to teach myself, but that does not help. I ask my parents, but they say they are busy. And when I do get help they don't explain or teach me, they have me do the work over and over until it's right. I do sports and other clubs to make them proud. My teammates give me the courage I need when I tell them my parents are going to come. Then again they never show to a game or meet, so what they gave me only made me feel dumb. I try at home and wonder if this will work, but it all turns into a mess. I don't do one thing and it all crumbles. They never notice the things I do right, but the things I do wrong. I write my troubles in a notebook about these things, but then I just burn them so I can forget and feel relieved. They only notice when I'm physically hurt and forget to ask how I feel. Is it wrong that I try to hard and do it right, but feel as if I did it wrong. I locked my real feelings away and can't reopen them. All my smiles and laughs are forced and fake. The real me, I think, is no longer here. But is trapped in darkness and can't feel. The me in the darkness can't see a thing, she shout all the time, "I want to see the light again!" She won't see light, this I know. So goodbye friends and loved ones, because the girl you knew is no more. The things she did wrong won't happen again. If fact she my never leave the darkness to do the things she once did.
