Sometimes I feel alone. I feel like my mom treats me like a outsider. She recently told me I was called for a modeling thing and I got really excited but it turns out theres is no modeling thing. I am very hurt and I hate that she thinks its funny that I was so excited for nothing. And I dont really have a audition. When I asked why she did it then she said because she wanted see how I would react well im hurt and I am having thoughts that in the end could hurt me and my loved ones.
Sorry I had to get my self together I was crying while writing this. sometimes I feel like if I wasn't here no one would miss me. I feel like crying is the only way to express my feelings when I can't go to my mom and talk to her. I know I can but I feel like she's not listening. I feel like going to talk to her is like me asking to get yelled at so im just gonna stay to myself and feel alone like always.
