I should have... but i didnt

I should have saved her life

I should have saved everyone this pain

I should have seem the truth behind her smile

Or the empty look in her eyes

I should have known she was hurting

I should have figured it out

But I got fooled

Just like everyone else

I saw her smile and didn't think anything could have been wrong

But that morning I found out shed hung herself

That was the morning when everything changed

Yeah I'd had my own problems but they were about to become a whole lot worse

It was my fault shed did it

I will always carry the weight of her death on my shoulders

There'll always be a voice inside my head saying that it was my fault

deep deep down inside I will know its not true

But on the surface ill always believe it

I knew what signs to look for

Fake smile

Fake laugh

Sad eyes

I saw it when I'd looked in the mirror every day

But I never saw it in her

The day that beautiful young girl got cut from our lives was the day it all truly became my fault

And I'll never forget that

Not for one second