Life as we know it to be

A little recap

And for a moment, I actually felt at peace. Usually with a man touching me at the slightest I'd become extremely nervous. It was honestly such a burden to be so scared and harmed when a male crossed my path. I tended to stay away from the other gender, scared of what might come after this nasty divorce I had experienced.

For some reason I couldn't seem to find myself getting out of this mere depression any time soon. I felt so hurt and betrayed, like something had stabbed me in the back. I was on the ground for so long, not wanting anyone or anything to come into my life, thinking that any sort of human interaction would have been sickening for me.

But one day, I met someone different. Nothing like any of the men I'd ever seen before in my life. You know how they say when you look at someone, you can tell if they're your soulmate or not? Well just by glancing at this mere man, I was already head over heels and I didn't even know his first name. I wonder to myself what would have happened if I never would have grabbed his arm and picked up the wallet he'd dropped, damn I would probably still be at home in my corner, starving myself to death.

I looked him in the eye and felt butterflies rip throughout my stomach, my cheeks burning as I showed off a bright red color toward them. After that things clicked so easily, I couldn't stay away he was almost like an addictive drug except this kind of drug wasn't going to harm me. His name was Cory, he was tall and witty. I thought his awful puns were quite adorable, along with his laugh. The way he ran his fingers through his thick tight curls made me melt inside. He had no idea how passionate I felt about him until one night we were taking a stroll in Central Park, hand in hand as I randomly spat "I love you" it was that moment that changed everything for the course of our relationship. I'll never forget how his hands grasped my cold cheeks and he leaned down real close, giving me his biggest smile. He whispered against my lips that he loved me as well, bringing me into the most passionate kiss I had ever shared with a man.

So now here I lay six months after meeting him, in his room on his silk sheets, watching as he kisses up and down my neck. With anyone else this would have felt wrong and distasteful, but with him it was like a breath of fresh air. I could feel him smiling against my neck, causing my little toes to curl and my nails to claw the sheets. He could obviously tell how nervous and odd I seemed to be, rolling off of my body and turning his head to face my way.

"You know." He started, taking my hand in his. "We don't have to do anything." He let out a small chuckle, I could see him watching as a sigh of relief left my lips.

I felt super awkward and embarrassed, this was the fourth time I had done this to him. Shouldn't I just be doing it now because of how embarrassed I was of it? Well hell I still wasn't sadly. The man sat up slowly, moving over to me and placing a hand on my head. "Don't be worried, it's not a big deal." He whispered, running his fingers through my long locks. As much as I waned to lay like that, having him stroke my throbbing head for a while, I got up, running my own hand through my hair.

"It is a big deal!" I cried out, giving him my wide eyes and worried expression. "We've been going out for six months now! I'm so pathetic." I flopped back on the bed, my arms sprawled out beside me as my gaze turned to his ceiling.

I knew he was watching me, waiting for me to say something else, even if he told me he wasn't upset, I knew he was in the back of my mind. I let out an annoyed grunt and folded my arms across my chest, looking up at him with a pout against my cheeks. "You're supposed to be mad and kick me out of your house!" I stammered, sitting up again. All he did was laugh, I'm sure he thought I was psycho. I gave him daggers and he held both hands up, he tried to hold in his laughs.

"Alright, alright! I guess I'm going to have to kick you out now!" He chuckled, getting off the bed and motioning for me to leave. I huffed, snatching my purse from the chair by his window and my jacket from the floor. "I'm kidding." He laughed, taking my purse and jacket away. I looked up at him with a pleading expression, as if he knew the answer to all of my problems. His lips released a sympathetic sigh, placing my stuff down and moving toward me. He pulled me into the most comforting and warm hug I had ever experienced. My heart was constricting at the sent of his cologne. I had never felt so secure in all my life, something about this man made me extremely happy.

I nuzzled my head into his chest, circling my arms around his abdomen. It was at this moment I realized, he was my future. I no longer needed to keep living in this past time where awful things happen to me. Where I was constantly beaten down and broken into a million little pieces. It was my time to learn that this was the man I wanted to walk down the aisle to, the man I wanted to have my first child with, and the man I wanted to stand by me for the rest of my goddamn life.

I pulled away and looked up at him confidently, giving him a wide smile. He furrowed his brow together, knowing I was up to something devious. "Whatcha thinking about, right now?" He said curiously, watching me stand on my tippy toes, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"I'm ready now." He chuckled at my comment, watching his facial expression light up in an almost sarcastic seeming way. I knew he probably believed I wasn't gonna go through with it, going to push him off of me or something but no, this time was different and exciting. I grasped the back of his head, pulling the man into a deep and passionate kiss as he picked me up, walking us backward to the place I was no longer frightened of.

3:22 AM is what the clock read when I looked at it. I turned my head a little and watched Cory sleeping soundly next to me, he was all wrapped up in blankets and such. I gazed up at the ceiling, replaying this night over and over again in my head. I couldn't get rid of the smile on my face, it was impossible to accomplish such a task. I pulled the sheets over my body tighter, goosebumps rising against my skin as the air in the bedroom graced against my bare skin. I'd figured that since we finally consummated our relationship that it meant it was officially bonded together. I was his and he was mine.

That thought made me all warm inside, the rush of heat traveling through my body was insane. Eventually I managed to get my eyes shut, I rolled over to the man I loved and weaseled my way into his arms. I smiled happily as his loving arms welcomed me, I couldn't have been more over joyed.

If only I knew life wasn't always so simple as having sex to make your relationship bonded, life was going to be so much tougher than I could ever imagine.

Hi loves! So this story is kind of based off of my role play character on Instagram! She's been too scared to search for love because of her hideous divorce and she's been too frightened to let love find her. Finally she's met Cory Matthews the man of her dreams, after this one night they have together their world changes ;-))) maybe you can figure it out. If you have any questions please DM me on my Instagram account @/hcirqueen !!! Hope you all have had a marvelous day and feel free to comment and vote and leave idea suggestions. More information about the characters in this story will be given next chapter!