The Sinner (kellic)

chapter 8

After our kiss on Wednesday, things have been more then awkward between me and kellin if I thought he avoided me before, I haven't seen anything yet. He refuses to respond to me when I attempt to be civil and to be honest it's a little discouraging. Maybe he doesn't actually like me in any way. Well shit.

I'm not too good at awkward situations but I'm starting to think that if I don't do something his parents are going to catch on that something is amiss between us. I can't have them knowing I've been putting the moves on their precious son. I'll get kicked out in an instant. So on Friday, as we are driving to work, I decide to try and set things right.

"I'm sorry," I blurt out and immediately cringe at how random it sounds. Kellin glances at me in confusing quickly before looking aback at the road. "What?"

"I-I'm sorry, for kissing you I guess." I sigh. This is definitely not something I'm used to. I rarely apologize, and never have I ever apologized for kissing someone.

"You-you're sorry?" Kellin asks bewildered. I shrug embarrassed, looking straight forward. I see him give me a small smile out of the corner of my eye.

"Thanks.' He says quietly.

"We should talk about it though." I comment hesitantly. I haven't forgotten the kiss for a moment. It was good, really good for someone who's probably never kissed anyone in his life. Maybe if I help him sort out his sexuality or something he'd be willing to do it again, and maybe a few other things. Who knows, I can hope. Kellin is silent for the rest of the ride to work and I assume that means taking is a no go. As we are leaving the car though, kellin stops me.

"Meet me in the game room after my parents go to sleep. We can talk then." Kellin says quietly, without looking at me. He leaves to go do his part of the work quickly, not waiting for me to answer. I don't even know what to make of that, so I try not to think about it. I swear I'm going to die of stress and I'm only 21.

The rest of the day at work I go over and over in my head what I could possibly say to kellin.  hey I kind of like you and maybe want to have sex with you  maybe idk, Probably wouldn't best way to get out my feelings. I'm so bad with this emotional bullshit, but I know that if I want to go anywhere further with this kid I'm going to have to say something phenomenal to get through this thick layer of Jesus or whatever. Kellin isn't quite ignoring me anymore, which I take as a good sign. He's still acting really weird and quiet around me, which sucks. I almost prefer him yelling profanities at me for touching his butt or something. I can see him peeking glances at me on the ride home after work though. I don't know what to make of it so I ignore them. It seems like m ignoring a lot of my problems lately. I can't wait till they blow up in my face eventually!

At dinner I eat quickly. Lisa and Ben always want to know about kellin and my day and, well it was awkward and quiet to be honest. So I devour my food as fast an s I can to avoid talking to them. I appreciate all they've done for me and even though I've only known them for a short time, they already annoy me like my own family. It's actually a good thing despite how it sounds. I feel welcome and almost like part of the family, despite all the secrets I keep and the fact that I wouldn't mind fucking their son. Kellin talks for both of us thankfully. He so animated and cheerful with his parents and it's the cutest thing. Kellin is the cutest. Dinner is over quickly and I retreat back to my room. I still have a few hours until the Bostwicks go to sleep so I use it to make myself a little calendar, writing things down that I have to get done this week and what day they should be done. I can sell most of the drugs during the thirty minuet lunch break but I'm going to need to ask for kellin's car or something to get my ass to the club. Maybe I can get someone from the club to give me a ride. All I know is that I can't trust kellin to take me anywhere. He's too curious for his own good. Planning for my illegal activities takes up only a couple hours so I'm left with a couple more to figure out just what the hell to say to this kid. I know him well enough to know that I'm going to have to put some real effort into seducing him. I don't even know fully if he's attracted to me. Here comes the self-doubt. Is he even gay?

I spend the entire time formulating this big speech. I'm almost certain it'll win him over. Around ten, I'm sure his parents are asleep, so I head down to the game room silently. It's on the first floor and it's pretty spacious. I don't know why kellin picked this room but whatever floats his boat. It's dark when I get there so I turn on one light, leaving the room dimly lit, and take a seat on one of the plush couches, and wait. It doesn't take kellin long at all to meet me. He walks in hesitantly, looking all around the room avoiding my gaze completely. He takes a seat on the far end of the couch away from me and is silent for the first minuet, just staring at his hands. I'm ready to finally say something when kellin lets out a long sig, turning slightly to look at me. Even with the lights dim I can still make out the red on his cheeks.

"So about um Wednesday..." he takes a deep breath, "I liked it." he blurts, his eyes wide like he just admitted to killing a man. I'm having trouble not letting out a laugh. He's so god damn cute what the hell!

"That's ok." I say comfortingly. Kellin is like a small, frightened animal right now and I know I have to go slow or I'll scare him away. I scoot a little closer to him so that I can see him better. Of course this couch is like as long as a highway.

"No if my parents found out I'd be dead." Kellin says sounding panicked. I scoot a little closer again.

"Kellin there's nothing wrong with kissing me." I coax, giving him a smile. Almost close enough but not quite.

"But you're...a guy." He whispers, watching me get closer and closer. He hasn't objected so I make the final little scoot until I'm seated beside him, knees touching.

"That's ok. Do what you want and I promise everything will be ok." Kellin's eyes flicker to my lips before he leans in timidly to press is lips against my own. I've been waiting for this since the first and last time and maybe I get carried away but I'm not really thinking anymore. I move my lips against his roughly, slipping my tongue inside is waiting mouth. He responds by grabbing hold of my shoulder length hair and tugging me closer. I rip his hands from my hair and press him back, so that he's laid flat out on the couch and press his hands above his head with one hand and attack his lips again. Kellin moans into my mouth and I feel myself growing harder in my tight, restricting pants. Kellin continues to make it harder to control myself when he arches his back, pressing his lower half into mine.

"Fuck Kells,"  I gasp, breaking the kiss and moving to down to place small kisses on his neck. I move down his neck lightly and kellin moans louder than before.

"I-this isn't a good-mm," he moans again when I lick the spot. I definitely found his sweet spot. The little noises he's making are driving me absolutely insane. I know I should control myself, kellin isn't ready for anything close to sex, but I can't help myself. I haven't done anything slightly sexual with anyone since I moved in with the Bostwicks. I move the hand not holding his wrists down to rub his thigh, going higher and higher as I continue to leave marks on his neck. He whimpers softly when my hand brushes the bulge in his pants. When my fingers slip beneath his t-shirt is when kellin seems to realize exactly what's going on and he pulls his hands out of my loose grip and pushes on my chest, shoving me away slightly.

"I-I'm sorry I can't do-"he starts, breathing heavily, his blue eyes watching me wildly. I nod quickly, so that he knows he hasn't done anything wrong.

"No its fine. Sorry." I mumble, running a hand through my hair  and curse myself. I should have gone a lot slower but he's so hot I kind of lost myself in the moment. Oops.

"We-we should go to bed." he suggest,biting his lip and sitting up, his cheeks his usual shade of embarrassment. I give a little smile and nod. He grins timidly back and I take that as a good sign. At least he doesn't seem like he's ready to cry like last time.

"Night Vic." he says shyly, before practically running up the stairs to be room. I stay in the game room a little longer, trying to calm myself down. I think I'm becoming a little obsessed with kellin Quinn Bostwick.

(A/N) sorry this chapter is a little short! im starting classes again Wednesday and im kind of freaking out so yeah