Kiss Me Deadly Peter Pan

Chapter 17: Mermaid Lagoon

We are so high up that I can see the whole of Neverland...I can say that it looks exactly like it does on the map in my book. Beautiful, absolutely beautiful. It makes me think of Suzie. We would plan out where we were going to live and how we would set up our base on that map. I know Iv spend more years of my life without her then with her but I just miss her so much. I wish she never left me. I wish she never died. I wish we found her body so we could at least bury or cremate her. The bullies after that flashes through my mind. How they would kick me in the mud on rainy days and decapitate the heads of stuffed fairies and purposely buy Peter Pan dolls so they could burn him infront of me and taunt me with them. It amazes me how fast I can go from thinking happy thoughts to sad thoughts. I know mum said have courage....but that's the hardest one to do...I haven't exactly been very kind lately either...well not to anyone who's not kind to me of course and forgiving? I guess I'm getting the hang of it. Iv forgiven dad countless of times and I don't care about the people at school anymore. I forgive them because I feel sorry for them. I tighten my grip around Pan and rest my head against his back as we fly through the air. I don't want to be vulnerable around him, I don't want to show anyone my vulnerable side. I just have to be tough...but I think my toughness is slowly leaving me...that act is slowly fading. Deep down I'm just scared shitless, deep down all my troubles and horrid experienced are threatening to tear me apart. There's something about this place that just makes me think of my life... Or maybe it's just me since I'm so far away from home...then again where is home? Maybe I am truly a lost girl. And here I am thinking sad thoughts again. I lift my head from his back and I stare at the moon in the distance.

"Wow..." I gasp. I look down and see a very light blue shining pool and a couple more metres down is a lagoon. We descend down and my shoes touch the ground. Well, looks like he didn't threaten to drop me this time which is a relief, I don't need it right now. Pan leads the way and he moves the tree leaves out of his way. Some hit me on the way there.

"Whoops sorry!" He chuckles sarcastically.

"Jerk" I mumble, flicking the bugs and leaves off my face and shoulders. I really cannot see right now, I don't know how he knows where to go in this darkness. I grab onto his shirt so I don't get lost. Just then, some type of animal runs and jumps on me, I scream and fall to the ground. Oh my god! What the hell was that?! I shake and punch around in the darkness until Pan lifts me to my feet.

"Oh calm down, it was a Baloogar, there the most harmless creatures"

"Well that one wasn't harmless" I grit my teeth "Whats a Baloogar??"

"A flying Monkey bear, I'll show you one when in the morning and that one probably just wanted a Hug"

I turn my head and raise my eyebrows at him.

"A hug? You've got to be kidding me" I slightly laugh out of disbelief. "Anyway How was I supposed to know? I can't see in this damn darkness like you can" I say still freaked out. He then puts both his hands on my shoulders and moves me infront of him and starts walking. I start walking too.

"There, now what Evers behind us will get me first but it just means you'll get the spider webs" he grins while guiding with my shoulders.

"Oh good to know" I sigh sarcastically and fold my arms. The cold of the night catches up with me and I shiver slightly. Maybe I should have gone back to my room.

"We are nearly there only a couple more footsteps"

As we take 5 more footsteps through the forest, pan moves a leaf out of the way to reveal a glowing sparkling Lagoon. Wow! The water in the lagoon continues far into the distance, almost like a lake but a glowing blue clean one. Now I can see. There's a large rock around the lagoon and I sit on one and look down in the water and see my reflection looking back up at me. Wow my hair is everywhere. I pull it out of the side braid and run my fingers through it getting the knots out. I turn to see Pan looking at me with no expression. He then shakes his head and looks away.