Man Who Can't Be Moved

Chapter 1

I sit here bored as hell in this classroom not paying any attention to the teacher instructing on how to properly pronounce a sentence in French to those student who hadn't payed enough attention over the year to remember. There is less than a few months left in this school year and I don't care much for classes even if I just stopped doing my work other than finals I would pass just fine but that wouldn't look so good when colleges look over it. French is one of my classes which I don't really need to pay attention in anymore since i know basically everything the teacher has taught. When I started this class in my Junior year here at McKinley I was having some trouble understanding but I was lucky enough to have Kurt around to help me as he can speak French almost fluently.

Kurt.

The name flooded my thoughts and refused to escape, everything came so unexpectedly, this almost never happens to me. In the very back of my mind the lyrics to Teenage Dream started to play out along with the first time I met this boy, my boy, the love of my life. Memories of coffee, Pavarotti, and Mistakes fill into my brain all at once. That night, the night I sang to him then later confessed that I had cheated on him with another man. How could I have done that to him? The only person I ever loved more than life didn't trust me anymore. I was stupid and foolish. Then came Christmas and he told me he was happy to see me and I had some hope; and the time he called me at sectionals and I learned that he still loves me. Then came Mr. Schue's wedding, Kurt and I made out in that car I got tofeel him again, and not just his perfect skin but his heart, I felt it beat as he was on top of me. We sang, we danced slowly, and we hooked up. We went out about twice before he escaped back to New York to where I feel like he belongs, with the stars, because he has potential. I really hope he is happy. My heart aches why does one word a simple name have to make me go through so many feelings at once? Why do I do this to my self? I come back to reality when I hear the school bell ring telling me that the day is done and I can go home. I walk out of the classroom and head straight to my locker to get what I need and go home, I am absolutely glad it's Friday. As I put in my combination and open the dull colored locker I see Tina, walking down the hall towards me, from the corner of my eye.

"How's it going Blainey?" She asks from the other side of the locker door.

"Just fine Tina, I can't wait for the weekend." I closed the locker door and turned to her to continue the conversation.

"Woah, Blaine It looks as if your going to cry."

"Really?"

"Yeah, what's going on?"

"I-I I'll tell you later want to meet up at The Lima Bean in two hours?"

"Sure, but before you leave I want to walk you to your car to make sure you're okay, alright?"

"Fair enough." Tina takes my hand and we start walking over to the senior parking lot. While we were walking Tina was trying to make small talk, trying to get my mind off of things I guess.

"...and here's your car, so I'll see you at The Lima Bean at around I suppose five right?"

"It's a promise." I assure her with a smile. Tina smiles back and waves before she turns around and walks away. I turn to my car, get in and drive home.

I open the door to the familiar building and immediately see my friend waiting in line, she was near the end so I assume she must have arrived a few minutes before me. I walk up to her and we exchange our hellos. When we have our coffee we sit and Tina starts talking.

"So, what was wrong?"

"Um, well, you know how Kurt and I are not together anymore, and I really, really loved him."

"You were devastated when you guys broke up."

"Yeah... so I sort of thought of him for just a second, and all these feelings, and memories came back to me, and I just couldn't handle it well so that's why I looked the way I did, as if I was going to cry." My voice cracked in the middle of this sentence.

"Your heart's still broken, you still love him."

"Of course I do, Tina, he was my first love we shared everything, we didn't have secrets, well up until that point."

"Do you think that you'll be together again?"

"I don't know, maybe." Yes, yes, yes I believe that Kurt is my soulmate and that someday he'll be mine again.

"I think so too, you two belong together."

"Thank you Tina."

"I have to go somewhere, sorry, remember Blaine, you just gotta have some courage and you'll make it through." She stood and left.

I sat, frozen, in my seat, courage. Why, Tina, why. I slowly stood after what seemed like minutes and walked out to my car, each step hard to take. I finally made it inside and closed the door. My head fell to the wheel and I whimpered.

Today was awful, I never get anxiety like this, at least I finally get to sleep and let go of all of it for at least eight hours. I closed my eyes to try to fall asleep when I heard a noise coming from my nightstand. I looked over, opening my eyes at the same time, to my cell phone. My arm reached over to grab it and check the incoming new message was from Kurt, my heart skipped a beat I quickly went to read what it said

hey