Wolf's Aid

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

Swiftpaw's POV

I pulled away from kissing Rose and my mind was going in every which way. Why did i just do that?! I don't know if she likes me enough to kiss me... Oh damn it I just screwed up with my mate. "Rose, I'm so sorry please forgive me." I bowed my head down to her in attempt to hide my face from her eyes.

She puts her hand under my chin to get me to look up at her. "Swiftpaw, look at me" she softly orders.

I stubbornly kept my head down at the ground. I made a mistake, a HUGE mistake. She's gonna kick me and Sharps out of the house now I think to myself.

"Swiftpaw! Look at me!" Her voiced is laced with dominance and power. "You will look at me with those brown eyes of yours this moment." I hesitantly lift my head up, focusing my eyes on the head board behind her. "Swiftpaw, c'mon now. What's wrong? What the hell are thinking? You're never submissive" she states matter-of-factly.

I exhale a huge sigh running my hands over my face. "I screwed up, okay? I just screwed up. We just met; this isn't how it works!" I exclaimed with my tone a bit rougher than I wanted. I looked in her hard brown eyes, the fire in my spirit relit. "I just know I went too fast" I say softer this time, in a poor attempt to communicate my feelings and meanings with her.

"I think you're wrong, honey. You haven't screwed up or gone to fast. Do you think I would be here smiling more than I ever have before if you did either one of those things?" She looks over my face for a few moments, before saying "I hope you don't regret that, because I sure as hell don't." Her voice lowers.

"No... No I don't regret it Rose. It's just not the way it works; we just met and we only know each others names, nothing more really." A brief moment of pain crosses my expression before I hid it away again. I looked at her seeing she was right; she was absolutely glowing with a smile highlighting her beautiful face. Something I never thought I would see there, but seeing it made the corner of my own lips twitch upwards in a half smile.

"So what? Isn't that what a part of love is? Learning about each other? We've got time, all the time in the world to learn who I am and who you are." She glows just a little brighter, or so it seems, when she notices my half smile. "See? There's that smile."

"Ya I guess so." I say allowing my smile to come out, but bury another part of me. Gaining the courage I've needed, I wrap one of her hands in mine and just look at her.

"Hey c'mon. What are you not telling me?" She looks down at our entwined hands and smiles brightly. She reassuringly squeezes my hand, and looks into my eyes. I see the reassurance and hope she's showing in order to get me to talk to her.

How on earth did she know I was hiding something? I've even hidden this from my sister. "It's nothing, just a bit of pain." I knew it was dangerous to hide what I was, but I couldn't burden her with it yet.

She gives me a questioning look. "Swiftpaw, cut the bullshit. I'm through with you hiding stuff from me. If you really are my mate, which I'm finding hard to be false, then you've gotta learn to trust me. You realize that I was made for you- to deal with both our problems. Please, Swiftpaw, please tell me." She grabs my hands and sits me down on the bed.

Damn it she knows, I think to myself. "I just know that I must take care of it myself. It's my fight, and mine only." I said looking down in shame at hiding this from the only two family members I have left. "I'm sorry Rose, just forgive me" I asked practically pleading to her.

"I can't let this go. Mates are mates. They fight battles together."

"No" I growl out harsher than I wanted, but my face contorted somewhere between rage and regret. "I won't put you at risk, not now at least. So just leave it." I order out, before grasping my side in pain as if someone had just stabbed it.